The Holly Wood

The ancients used to use the branch from the Holly tree to cast spells. The Holly wood. Modern-somebody knew this.

Hollywood loves to cast spells. In the movies the down-on-their luck guy or gal gets their big break and is saved from their sorry lot in life. Suddenly they are rich, beautiful and in-demand.

Do you believe something or someone else can save you? Do you hope that enough likes, attention, good looks or cash can make you the Queen or King you long to be?

Alot of you do. You can insert your Hollywood ending here.

No. No amount of likes, money, love, looks, professional degrees, the Presidency (for God’s sake), being an Influencer or anything else can do this work for you. You are already the Queen or King you long to be, but it is going to take some serious inner work – Inner Alchemy – to own it.

You have to face your fears, think you’ll perish on the street, feel certain you;re going to die alone and alchemize those inner voices and energies. These movies play in your head constantly and they OWN you. You have to dismantle this Influencer. It’s the only one that counts.

Hollywood spells are for beginners. You are not a beginner. You are a spiritual athlete.

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The Hollywood Ending, but….

We have a breakthrough. After months, years or even decades we break through the fear that was holding us back and take the brave action. And then…..we’re done, right? We’re Rocky Balboa running up those stairs, conquering it all. Fade to black. Perfect. Forever.

Nope. We’ve broken through the inner shadow archetype mesh, it feels great (it does, it is) and then? It could be an hour or a day, it could be just a few minutes and we’re back in shadow. It’s insidious. It feels unfair.

The Hollywood story tells us all we have to do is get the thing. The physical triumph, the girl or guy and, especially, the money. The more the better. It equates having the money with conquering the shadow. Permanently conquering the inner and outer struggle. That is a lie. Money may or may not show up when you’re mostly (or completely) out of the shadow archetype matrix, but it is not the same. Seems like that should be obvious, but it isn’t. Not in our culture. Not in the world.

Rocky had his moment and then he was back in the ring. Fighting a human opponent and his own inner shadow. Watch what happens after your victory. Do you collapse? Be vigilant. It’s insidious. Don’t collapse.

Spirare 1

Spirare. To breathe. The breath of life.

This insight is not quite formed, but here goes…this inner knot that has been with me my whole life and probably lifetimes and dimensionalities beyond. It says I will lose everything. It chatters that constantly. It grips my gut and wakes me up at night.

But it is an illusion.

I think if I really got that, it would dissolve and delude me no more. But I do get it. Maybe not enough? The knot has enough energy and seeming-life to grip me so.

It is a is a weird place to be. That knowing but not knowing. Knowing in such a way that finally you – ah! – see the roots and yank that weed out of your psyche and soul. I live there alot.