The real freedom is within. Nothing….no thing….in the apparent external world has to change for you to be utterly, completely free right this moment. But something internal has to. The internal reality most of us experience is “apparent” too, but not to me…not yet.
Recently I was talking with a friend about ascension. There are aspects I probably cannot articulate yet, but I have known for a long time that part of the process is that the soul releases its identification with form. That does not means we die. We are so trained to equate form with physical life, but that’s part of the problem. The spiritual release and dropping the identification of form (which is so much more than the physical body) is an act of soul and consciousness. It sounds airy-fairy and unrelated to the nuts and bolts of life, but it is neither. It IS profoundly practical and just profound overall.
I longed for this state for most of my life. I studied it. If anyone who experienced it wrote about it, I read it their accounts. I used to be a walking encyclopedia of written spiritual accounts of humans who had awakened to non-duality, soul freedom, ascension. After decades of inquiry, I concluded the shift is an act of grace. If fervor, longing, sincere desire, intuitive knowing, etc., could cause this state, I would have experienced it many times over. I can’t say that none of that matters, because maybe it does and it doesn’t matter anyway because once you have a taste for it, you cannot let it go and you long for that freedom. We long for it because we know it is our true state. But what pulls the final lever of awakening? It seems to be the soul. The human cannot cause it.
I do Zoom calls with Byron Katie almost every week and have done so for over four year. BK is an awakened human. She does not describe herself that way, which is all the more telling of her authenticity, so these are my words and my experience of her. She too has said that her “experience on the floor” (see any of her books to know how she woke up on the floor one morning and nothing was the same) was an act of grace.
The solar generator suddenly started taking in half of what it is supposed to and half of what it was taking in just days before. For no reason. It could only muster a third of a full charge on the battery at the most. We had very little electricity and there was nothing we could do about it. The generator is barely three years old. It should be doing better, but it is not.
Our truck has two threadbare tires that are barely eight months old and two very worn ones that are five months old. These are just two of the vital resources that are challenged now, but there are numerous other important things that are not working: the gas generator, RV heater (our backup “go to” in freezing cold weather) and more.
The cat food for health issues that my cats desperately need is not coming in to the store in Taos I have to drive an hour and a half to get. Special ordered it weeks ago. Gee, they’re sorry, they say. I cannot just sub in food from Walmart – a mere hour’s drive away- because the one cat’s digestive system will just shut down if he doesn’t get the specialty food. The only place that has it is a 6 hr roundtrip drive. I do the drive. On the threadbare tires. That held up, by the grace of God.
Virtually every aspect of my husband’s and my life is disrupted. The solutions to essential problems like getting food; anything (!) involving plumbing (we have none); driving – we must drive a minimum of an hour to get anything, except gas, when the place in town has it; heating; laundry – all of it is disrupted and solutions, that sometimes seem impossible, must be found. How can I get my cats food when the young truck keeps going through tires like tanks of gas and sometimes, like this past Fall, stops working altogether?
The Earth is shifting. The matrix we live in – which is the only reality to the majority of people on Earth – will disappear. I do not know when or how the entire shift will happen, but I know it is underway and will not only become more obvious, but will be all-inclusive. Everyone will feel it.
Like everything, people will experience it differently, but there will be a point when everyone will be affected. The old will not be available in the same way. I am affected now, but I know others who are not as affected or even nearly so. But I do not see how that can remain when the deeper aspects of the shift materialize.
While there is a collective aspect to this life we are living, the journey is always an individual one first and foremost. My soul has its own reasons for putting me through what I am going through. However, I do wonder if part of the reason for this spiritual bootcamp experience in which I am immersed is so I can be a friend, one who has ” been there, ” to others when the ground starts to shift underneath their feet. It is a radically different way to live. It is cool because you must be creative on virtually every level of your being. There is no guide book. But it would be more fun if doing it didn’t suck so much of the time. Ha. Spirit’s sense of humor. It’s having a good laugh.
In our galaxy, there is a Galactic Senate. It has 300,000 members and humans of Earth are not on it. We are not on it, because we have not shown we are worthy of being in this Senate. Let me be clear, by “worthy” I mean, we have not shown we are spiritually-advanced enough to be selected. But the truth is we are spiritually-advanced enough, we just need to demonstrate it. We need to stop fighting, hating and letting lower frequencies and the “bad actors” that use them control our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. We ARE ready for this. Let’s show it.
Here is a statement some folks created this weekend to present to the Galactic Senate:
“We respectfully request representation based upon our unique experience and diversity. We, as the sovereign human, express a blueprint as spirit in form, to demonstrate love, wisdom, courage and the integrity to evolve beyond the cosmos. We are ready!”
She must have said it a thousand times. I’ve tuned into her class almost every week since May of 2020, sometimes three times a week, but I never got it the way I did last week: “Any time you feel stressed, depressed or feel unease of any kind, it is because of what you are thinking and believing. It is only because of that.”
Your thoughts. My thoughts. The way to freedom is within us. We’ve got the power.
Her suggestion: write the thoughts down on paper (or the app) and in a state of silent inquiry, question them.
I can hear the audience pushback now:
But bad things happen
He/she is the cause of my stress/ heartbreak/anger
If I don’t like someone, it’s clearly about them
I can’t control my thoughts
it’s YOU causing me stress!
I get it. Experientially, I can relate to all the objections. But I also know that when a stressful thought disappears into the silence of the One, the heart emerges from the cloud cover and beams. It soaks my world in sweet kindness. It feels realer than real.
In my lived experience, I vacillate. Intuitively? I know unconditional inner freedom is real. Getting to that unperturbable place as a state of being? Well, that is the game here. That is the school most of us are in.
Earth is not a reasonable planet. The teacher at the front of the class said that recently. She knows alot. She was being intentionally delicate.
A shit show. That’s how the woman sitting next to me described it. I agree with her, but for the sake of this post I will be delicate.
We see people who have what they need and people who don’t. We probably think, “That’s just how it is. It is the nature of reality. Some people have what they need and some people don’t.” That’s how I used to think about it.
Here’s how I think about it now: “If you are born on this planet you have the right to a comfortable life. Period. No matter who you are, if you were born here, this planet is, de facto, your home. You have a right to be at home & comfortable in/on your home. Full stop.”
Until every human on this planet enjoys a comfortable physical life as a matter of fact, Earth will remain an unreasonable place. It is a matter of principle and principles are complete unto themselves, they do not have or require exceptions.
Therefore when that principle is accepted and activated, every human WILL have a comfortable life here on Earth and Earth will start to become a reasonable planet.
This may seem impossible, but that is what we were taught to believe, just like we were taught to believe that it is acceptable and reasonable that some people live in horrendous physical circumstances. When it is time, in our case it is a matter of timing, when it is time for this principle to be accepted and implemented, the changes and upgrades will be rapid.
My teacher Patrick O’Hara used to say that. It probably means a hundred different things to a hundred different people. I guess most would hear it in an egoic sense, like you are the “It” gal or guy or you are “the bomb,” better than all the rest.
That is not what Patrick meant. Patrick meant you are the hub of your reality. You are the creator. If you see a problem, you are the solution. If you don’t like the dream you’re experiencing, reprogram it. You are the dreamer, it is your dream. You are also beyond the dream. You are that. You are beyond any dream and any sense of ego “I, me or mine.”
Once you start to really get that, it shakes the apparent solidity of your life. It’s not always fun. In fact, it’s often not fun. But here lies the rub: once you’re on to it, you can’t turn back. Once you get a taste of this knowledge you can’t untaste it. It is the beginning of waking up, but that can take time. During that time you’ve got of a kind of unjelled reality: you are still immersed in the dream, but you know it’s just a dream, but you’re wanting it to be solid or real whatever it seemed to be in the past or ….the absolute freedom you know lives beyond dream, but you’re not there either. It can really take the fun out of things.
I find myself sentimental alot lately. I realize I am remembering, savoring, crying over, longing for, essentially, storylines. I know. It’s a lot to take in if you really consider it, but the point is once you’re on to the fact that this is all really a dream, you can’t unknow it and – eventually- that knowing takes you to full awakeness, the immovable Divine, which you are. That is what Patrick meant: you are It.