Category Archives: Creation

Disrupting

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The solar generator suddenly started taking in half of what it is supposed to and half of what it was taking in just days before. For no reason. It could only muster a third of a full charge on the battery at the most. We had very little electricity and there was nothing we could do about it. The generator is barely three years old. It should be doing better, but it is not.

Our truck has two threadbare tires that are barely eight months old and two very worn ones that are five months old.
These are just two of the vital resources that are challenged now, but there are numerous other important things that are not working: the gas generator, RV heater (our backup “go to” in freezing cold weather) and more.

The cat food for health issues that my cats desperately need is not coming in to the store in Taos I have to drive an hour and a half to get. Special ordered it weeks ago. Gee, they’re sorry, they say. I cannot just sub in food from Walmart – a mere hour’s drive away- because the one cat’s digestive system will just shut down if he doesn’t get the specialty food. The only place that has it is a 6 hr roundtrip drive.
I do the drive. On the threadbare tires. That held up, by the grace of God.

Virtually every aspect of my husband’s and my life is disrupted. The solutions to essential problems like getting food; anything (!) involving plumbing (we have none); driving – we must drive a minimum of an hour to get anything, except gas, when the place in town has it; heating; laundry – all of it is disrupted and solutions, that sometimes seem impossible, must be found. How can I get my cats food when the young truck keeps going through tires like tanks of gas and sometimes, like this past Fall, stops working altogether?

The Earth is shifting. The matrix we live in – which is the only reality to the majority of people on Earth – will disappear. I do not know when or how the entire shift will happen, but I know it is underway and will not only become more obvious, but will be all-inclusive. Everyone will feel it.

Like everything, people will experience it differently, but there will be a point when everyone will be affected. The old will not be available in the same way.
I am affected now, but I know others who are not as affected or even nearly so. But I do not see how that can remain when the deeper aspects of the shift materialize.

While there is a collective aspect to this life we are living, the journey is always an individual one first and foremost. My soul has its own reasons for putting me through what I am going through. However, I do wonder if part of the reason for this spiritual bootcamp experience in which I am immersed is so I can be a friend, one who has ” been there, ” to others when the ground starts to shift underneath their feet. It is a radically different way to live. It is cool because you must be creative on virtually every level of your being. There is no guide book. But it would be more fun if doing it didn’t suck so much of the time. Ha. Spirit’s sense of humor. It’s having a good laugh.

5D Physics are Different

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Sometimes I hear that it will take a long time for an ascended reality to unfold in practical, physical structures on our planet. That is understandable given the slow nature of the kind of 3/4 D we have lived in (for ages) and are living in, but 5D will be different. It will have different physics. Matter will appear quickly and move in the same way. Gravity? I don’t know the details, but I know we will master it in short order. This could happen sooner than most of us think.

Why am I afraid of my power? (Part 1 – also known as “Am I levitating yet?”)

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I am studying the practical application of the Siddhis. I would like to study them, is more the truth. I am finding it difficult to get current, useful, enlightened information on their practical use. Instead I am wading through religious gobbledygook that is familiar muck.
I bought a book called “Beyond the Siddhis,” hoping it would offer practical suggestions for using the siddhis in every day life. While reading the first chapter, I was reminded of a bias I have encountered many times: that the “powers” attributed to the siddhis are, essentially unspiritual. They are impediments on the path to enlightenment and union with life.

I have heard that alot in my life and took it to heart. The result: tons of confusion, self-doubt and a desire to conform (which I mostly failed). I distrusted myself and, to some degree, it inhibited me from developing higher-order capabilities, choosing instead to be tethered, out of fear, to existing ways of navigating reality.

If I give Patanjali the benefit of the doubt, I would say he said these things to warn individuals against getting lost in any ego-based or “glamour” element of the siddhis. This applies to some people (and many institutions), but I am not one of them. If it applies to you, then by all means do the necessary inner work to release any sense of powerlessness and illusion that would make you seek power over others as a substitute for real power, which does not include power “over” anyone or thing and, further, does not even include an “other.” Power dwells within you, which I will get to in another post on this subject.

With all the warnings and shaming in the texts about developing siddhis, I also see classic brainwashing at work. Humans have been taught for millennia to doubt their own inner experience and any abilities that could be considered “super” by the existing institutions, including all religious orders. Those of us with a sincere desire for spiritual evolution have gotten alot of goop on our hands in this quest.

The thought sequence behind this post went something like: Institutions are crumbling. They are supposed to, because an unprecedented Earth is emerging. It will be beyond-beautiful. It will be beyond-belief. It will be the impossible dream come true. But…it’s not that now. This crumbling of existing institutions may get more intense. That wouldn’t feel like the big problem it does if something new and better emerged concomitantly (“something that naturally accompanies or follows something”). But that isn’t happening, at least not on a large scale. So these days, life can feel like hanging on to a ship that is cracked and taking on water.

It’s time to awaken those inner powers and use them in everyday life. ( Everyday Siddhis. Maybe there’s a book in that?) Soon, the old ways will not work and we need a clue about what will work.

The Siddhis are abilities that operate on a quantum scale. Time and space are local AND non-local. Not a problem. When does it seem to be a problem? When we take a so-called Newtownian thought/reality box and try to squeeze it in there. That, my friends, is the only problem.

Invisibility (masslessness), levitation, clair-sensory (inner hearing, seeing), remote viewing, bi-locating – are not only possible, but necessary in a quantum world and on a planet that has finally evolved spiritually and become a peaceful member & player in its own galaxy and other galaxies.

If you are to pull what you need into your own physical reality – whatever density you’re in – and y’don’t have the old institutions anymore (which are really, when you boil it down, just “ways of doing things” with a bunch of fancy names, a ton of collective agreement and fake orders of importance attached to them) then what are you to do?

True North Off

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A friend of mine has been getting intuitive prompts to move. It started in late 2019 and by early 2020, she and her husband had stored most of their belongings and staged their home for market. Then the pandemic hit. They put the brakes on moving or even thinking about it. Understandable, though ironic, since 2020 was a great year to sell a house.

Recently, she’s been getting this prompt again. I don’t know what she’ll do with it this time, but I hope she takes action. Intuition asks for action.

Before she told me about the revived idea of a move, she lamented that her life felt really flat. Intuition requires action. Moving can feel scary. If it were me – at another time in my life, I do not have the option for it now – I would have felt the fear mostly by way of wary thoughts, meaning things like “what if this doesn’t work out?, “what if I miss the people I know and the places I like?,”I already know where to go for all my needs here, why move?”…and so on.

The thing about fear is that it is often mistaken for wisdom. The two are not the same. We are so conditioned to be cautious and over-intellectualize everything that we think fearful beliefs are sensible, prudent and wise. But however “crowd-sourced” and approved certain beliefs are – “how can you move at YOUR age??” – they are still beliefs rooted in of fear. Like crooked trees with roots of fear.
If you say “yes” to fear and “no” to your intuition, it puts your life on a fearful footing, fearful rooting. I call this “inner positioning.” You position yourself internally in fear and it acts like a compass guiding your whole life and being.

Life coach Martha Beck uses the term “true north” to describe what it is like to live in a way guided by intuition and spiritual truth. When we insist on saying “no” to this spiritual guidance, we are taken off (we take ourselves off) our true north. It’s like we are True North Off. We pay a price for that choice; loss of vitality is a big one.

The good news: it is completely your choice and changeable in a heartbeat…before your next breath.

Your Way of Life is a Collection of Thoughtforms

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The way you live is a collection of thoughtforms. Each brick of the house – the way it’s placed, what it’s made of, the fact it is called a “brick” – they are all thoughtforms. You can look at the thoughtforms like bricks – one on top of another, stacked or in a pile, configured this way or that. Thoughtforms.

They also just happen to be someone else’s thoughtforms. Would they be yours if you were free, really free to create?

I see my current life as if it were a metaphorical layer cake. One of the large layers is what I call “wiping the slate clean.” It reminds me of the old days (a.k.a. “my childhood”) when I played with an Etch A Sketch. It was an art toy where you would draw an image on a gray screen with knobs. When you wanted to draw a new image you would shake the toy and it would clear the screen so you could draw a new one. My current life is like shaking an Etch A Sketch.

I have cleared out many of the old forms of my way of life. Torn down the bricks. Shaken out the forms. I live in the bare minimum so I can draw a completely new picture. And not with someone else’s second-hand ideas and “shoulds” or “have-to’s.” (As in life “should” be this way or life “has to” be this way). Nah, it doesn’t. There’s (glorious) newness beyond our wildest dreams to come.

A Bigger Off-Grid

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This past Thursday I got a text from my friend Debra in Albuquerque with a link to a New York Times article about Ted Conover’s new book: “Cheap Land Colorado: Off-Gridders at America’s Edge.” As some of you know, my husband and I live off-grid in the San Luis Valley in Colorado, which is where Mr. Conover’s book is set. I read the article in the local coffee house, Milagro’s – local meaning in Alamosa, an hour away from the Mesa where I live – and as I walked out of Milagro’s I saw a sign on their door for a book signing being held by Mr. Conover that night.

On my way home, I picked up my mail and there he was again! On the cover of the local newspaper. Behold the power of the New York Times! A “3 ping” event in a short time catches my attention, so I asked my husband if we could go to the reading that night. My husband said “yes” as he is writing a memoir about life on the Mesa, provisionally called “Served By the Sun,” and he was interested.

Unfortunately, as the time of the book signing approached, we were too busy actually living our off-grid life to drive two hours to see someone talk about it.
The first snow came to the Mesa that night. I drove up from town (San Luis) in it and it was blinding. We couldn’t leave our place because the woodstoves needed to be going full-tilt and the cats were in the warmer RV, but the propane had to be monitored. If the RV propane runs out, the temperature in the RV plummets in minutes. It was in the 20’s that night.

In the NYT article about the book, I got a basic idea of what Mr. Conover had experienced and written about. He lived in an area in the San Luis Valley he referred to as “the Flats” and to be honest, I do not know where that is.
The San Luis Valley is 8,000 square miles. It is the largest high-altitude desert in North America. ALOT of it is flat. I sometimes refer to the flat sagey land in my neighborhood as “the incomprehensible sage flats,” but “the Flats” could be any number of places in the Valley.

After reading the article, I thought of my “take” on our-off-grid life and how I would offer a different take on life in the Valley and what drove the two of us to move here.
To speak practically, I will say that price was a consideration. I would have preferred not to be living so profoundly “off-grid,” as far as water and electricity go or to at least have “on grid” options, but I did not see a way to get the other things that were non-negotiable and have those water and electricity options for a price we could afford.

The non-negotiables:

-Privacy & no HOA
– ET sightings/history of the area
-Being more off-grid from the current “cultural” (way of life) matrix in our country and on most of the planet
– Beauty in the environment
-Quite, serenity and sovereignty over our living space
-Some community (and…the wild horses that live here were unexpected and a complete blessing)

Here is a summary of some of the points I would give Mr. Conover if he asked me for my take on “off grid” life:

-the soul nudged (maybe it shoved)

-part of that nudge/shove was the rug got pulled out of our old life – it happened more gradually for awhile and then in Summer 2020 it was “GO” time, the rug was yanked. That life had 7 weeks left and then it was no more. We got into creative action.

– all the steps that followed – and there were MANY – were part of the soul’s (souls’) insistence that we drastically shift the outer world as part of the drastic inner shifts that are underway
(My husband obviously has his own soul’s shift, but I cannot report on the details of that partly because he rarely frames things in those terms, so that is why I go back & forth between speaking about “we” and speaking from the first person. The shift was definitely in OUR life, but the way we each see it and possibly the outcomes – the shifts themselves – may be different)

-create enough of an inner spin that will take me through ascension (this way of life is serving that purpose)

-position myself for the earth ascension that is already under way and to interface with off-planet friends and new technologies to assist with my job here on Earth

There is more, but that is a good summary. I often experience fear and alot of frustration (it has taken me 5 days to power up this laptop and access my blog- grrrr!).

I know something huge and radically different is coming to the planet and for some of the people (could be lots of people, but what are lots of people choosing??), but I don’t know when or how it will unfold in our everday life. And in the meantime I often struggle to know how to navigate this time (and to be honest, the last 30 years which have largely been “this” kind of time).
But…. I am not a victim. I wish the people Mr. Conover lived with could reframe their state of minds to know they too are not victims. Victim is a state of mind. I know that can seem very difficult to embrace in the face of what people experience and yet, it is a cosmic truth: there are no victims.

It is a challenge to understand this truth on the profound spiritual level where it exists. But my God! – what better way to spend your time than inquiring and contemplating this truth?

All for today. More to come. As Byron Katie says from her profound, awakened first-hand experience: the Universe is friendly. How are you seeing that today?

Gatherings in the New

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A planet of spiritually-wise, self-responsible humans will create communal “vessels” – what we might define as institutions – that are completely different than the institutions we now know and have known. I am really looking forward to that as I love being with others, but the nature of current institutions and the nature of consciousness on the planet in general has turned me off and made me much more of a loner than I am..

The coming collective reality and its gatherings – people coming together for work, play – will be a joyous expression and out-picturing of the true spiritual reality we will all know and understand ourselves to be. They will be an overflow and flowering of that.

Earth: Unprecedented

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From this morning: The vision of what is coming here. Not a lot of details yet, but when the unprecedented is manifesting, how much will – or could – be known in advance? Of Earth, all these will be unrecognizably different:

Physics

Physicality – human, animal, land masses, the 2nd Dimension beings (minerals, lichens, molds, elements and more) – different

DNA, including and importantly, of humans

Land masses – not necessarily different location on planet, but different substance, like all the rest, plus absent the degradation of current planetary way of life and colonial rule/agenda of destruction

Totally new Matrix, if even a Matrix at all. If so, much more refined in frequency and lighter in weave

All cellular structure altered/upgraded

ALL UPGRADED!

How you construct reality

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Early this morning I was fretting over the changes going on in my life and how I was going to get the things I need and solve future problems. These are the sure signs of the ego at work. Nonetheless, this process can, and often does, create misery that looks and feels very real.

Then the realization happened: this maze of seeming problems – “How will I get the cats cared for? What will I do if the car breaks?” – is just another thought construct. My brain runs itself ragged going from apparent problem to apparent problem, but often there is no questioning of the process and the reality of the problem. “Is this really what it seems to be? Is this really how it is?”

I don’t go so far as to question the reality of the car or the cat, because I have found that to be a waste of time, but it is useful to question the ego-brain’s assumption about the nature of problems and especially, how they could be solved.

By letting the thoughts and the seeming “hard-edged” physical reality be a construct and not an absolute – as it is presented by most of the world – you start to not only relieve the experience of stress in your mind and body (no small thing), but you also start to see options for solutions you would not have seen. Let me repeat that: you wouldn’t have seen them.

You open your eyes.

Solutions appear.

That’s valuable.