Category Archives: Disclosure

The Isolation (& Assorted)

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It is cold in my yurt. Got the heat back on, but it has only risen to 57 F from 52. Fingers are cold as I type.
A couple fingers are swollen. Not from cold. Not sure from what. Saw my functional MD this summer and I had two underlying bacterial conditions, including chlamydia. I got it from a spider bite. Only Dr. Bill, my functional MD, would know that! Turns out some scientific dude studied spiders back in the day and cultured one of their mandibles (wtf?). He discovered chlamydia bacteria. So you don’t have to have sex with the spider. It just has to bite you.

I took kudzu for one of the infections. I think it was the chlamydia. One of the symptoms was swollen finger joints, which is what is happening again. I ordered some more kudzu. I’ll see if it helps with my finger joints. The pinky on the right hand has kind of blown up. Weird. They were feeling alot better until a couple days ago.

I was in Denver last weekend. Doing a class with Sharon, the beloved spiritual teacher. After class, during happy hour at the hotel, I was talking to Patricia. I’m not even sure exactly what I said, but expletives were flying out of my mouth. I am originally from New Jersey and have been known to sling a swear word or two. I think I was trying to articulate how disappointed and isolated I feel because almost no one seems to get what my life is about. And….that group there, my classmates – they should know better. So I think.

Truth be told, some of them might get it. They might be able to articulate an understanding of my life experience – the gist, the core of it – that would feel really satisfying to me. No one did so that weekend. Part of the problem of not only the way I currently live, but with society in general now is how isolated we are. Not only that, but our collective communication has been affected – for the poorer – from the Algo culture (Technical/Artificial Intelligence world, culture). I don’t even understand it all. I don’t want to. I just know Algo shapes communication and perception: we feel more separate and worse.

I felt icky after talking to Patricia. Even though swearing happens out of my mouth, I don’t feel good afterwards, especially if it has caught me off-guard, which this did….completely. I am sitting with the aftermath of the conversation, discerning what I need to be more conscious of. It is this: I feel isolated. It stresses me. I greatly wish people understood and appreciated what I’m doing with my life and why I’m doing it. I write this blog in hopes of helping with that. To be honest, it is the best I can do. I have almost no patience for explaining my life. I speak up, but am also quiet alot.

Too often people see it in the old way. Try to fit it into old narratives. Matrix-created narratives of meritocracy and their own unconscious ego action. So much unconscious ego trancing: “This feels pleasurable and safe. It is good. This does not. It is bad.” It is a trance folks.

I feel impatient. Everything will change on this planet and then people will be living their own profound change and transformation. They will have no choice. Some are doing that now. I know some of them. Still most people seem to be choosing comfort, the known and stagnation.

More on The Good Emergency: Earth in Transition

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One of my favorite quotes from the last year came from an interview with Sophie Gregoire Trudeau, the ex-wife of Canadian Prime Minister, Justin Trudeau. When asked what her younger self thought about her future, she responded, “I don’t make many plans. I’ve trained my brain to deal with uncertainty more. The brain doesn’t like uncertainty. Stress is a dysfunctional relationship with the present moment.”

I relate well to her words as I have had to examine my relationship to the unknown more than I would have predicted or liked the last two years.

When the rug got pulled from my old life in 2019-2020, I ventured into deeply new inner and outer territory. What drove me was an inner knowing that everything on planet Earth was going to change profoundly.

When the sudden changes came in my own life, I knew it was time for a radical departure from the known world into a life that would – hopefully – be a bridge to the unprecedented reality about to unfold on Earth.

The Earth itself has ascended to the 5th Dimension. Humanity is living in a transition version of the old 3rd dimensional world we all know and (many) think is the only reality that exists….in the entire Cosmos! We have been taught to believe that.

Each density or dimension has very different characteristics, somewhat like different countries having very different customs, language, geography, etc. The change from our old 3rd dimension to the 5th dimension will be radical because the 5th has its own structure (much bigger than 3rd), laws, physics and relationship to duality and it bears no resemblance to our old 3D world.

The other striking thing about this transition from 3D to 5D will be the complete falling away of the system of control that has taken root on our planet for many years. This system of control shapes almost everything we experience in our lives. Just this one fact, the absence of it, will dramatically change our world as we know it. Add to that the ascension into higher dimensions and you have the unprecedented world we are moving into. It is a great time for each of us to challenge our relationship to the unknown and make it more relaxed. We will need that skill. It may seem like the changes I’m talking about will take hundreds of years, but they will not. They will take mere months and years.

It is hard to know exactly what the transition will look like. I would say, though hopefully not to confuse anyone, that in some ways and only in some ways, the lockdown of the pandemic in 2020 was a primer. It was a primer in that almost everything in our world shifted immediately. Everyone had to turn on a dime. This was an incredibly valuable experience. It taught us that the reality we have been lead to believe was absolute and immutable can change in an instant.

Things on Earth will change, but this time we will not be going back to “normal.” This fact might feel very jarring to some. It might feel like an emergency.

Conventionally we experience an emergency when: 1) something sudden and painful is happening; 2) there is usually some form of destruction and we mobilize (like crazy) to eliminate the pain and return to normal, even if that process takes years.

If you extract the painful part and the focus on returning to normal (the two are often very connected), we can call an emergency “good” as there are admirable qualities an emergency brings out. Here are some:

1. Everyone involved knows it is happening (this is key).

2. Time changes. We don’t think much about it because we are too busy acting.

3. We just act. Our thoughts become utilitarian, we do not have time to overanalyze (or snipe on social media or do much of anything on social media, especially if it no longer exists!). We are completely immersed in the process.

4. Our resistance lessens or disappears. There is simply no time for it.

5. What we think we need changes radically.

6. We don’t stand around judging others. We act together.

As our world shifts, you can see how these qualities will be essential. I do not think digital anything is active in the 5th dimension, but there will likely be a transition from our insane dependence on it now to its disappearance. As the transition really gets underway, people will likely be acting in-person in more local communities (will be radically new for younger people).

The old world will not be returning. There will be no “normal” to go back to. It will seem scary for awhile. Time to bring in your better relationship to the unknown. It might feel like an emergency, but it is a good, a great emergency.

We will all be a crucial part of a magnificent transformation. It will have positive reverberations for our entire Universe, which we have yet to meet! There will be great celebration in the cosmos as humanity is freed from the controlling entities and systems that have held it in bondage for ages and the Earth and its inhabitants ascend into spiritual greatness and take their rightful place as fully free cosmic citizens.

Are you ready to rock and roll? We got this!

Why Didn’t This All Shift in 1958?

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I have had two major storms of knowledge about imminent radical change on Earth. Each one guided or accompanied major changes in my life.

In both cases, especially the first which started in 1990 and continued in one form or another until around 1996, the change shown to me was definitely right on the verge. It oozed from my pores. I had a spiritually-oriented therapist at the time who told me humans on Earth would never (never!) communicate telepathically. I thought to myself, “That is the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard. They will do so and soon.” I knew it in my bones, my soul, my DNA. I came into this life to usher in this new Earth and finally the shift of all man-made systems, the ecosystems, consciousness and physics was underway.

And then it didn’t happen.

In 2020, new downloads unfurled. The rug got pulled from our life – all part of the unfoldment I thought – and then….it didn’t happen. Again. By now, I have a bit of a complex. I do not necessarily think my intuition has been wrong, but that the plan for the unfoldment changes, maybe daily.

In the book “Return of the Dove,” by Margaret Storm, the author is absolutely positive the shifts on Earth, which she groups under the umbrella term of The Aquarian Age, are just weeks away. She had very sold intel, from spiritual masters. That was 1958.

Curiously, alot of Ms. Storm’s info, much of it from the likes of sources like ascended master St. Germain, were very similar to the reports from YouTube influencer and Galactic Federation emissary, Elena Danaan, about events that took place in late 2021 both on and off-planet.

They both spoke of the clearing out of all off-planet controllers from our solar system. Elena reported these events in detail in December 2021. Separated by 63 years, they both claimed the remaining problems on Earth were the result of the minions of the off-planet instigators that were still in embodiment on Earth.

How can this be? Margaret Storm wrote about the vast changes happening “soon” and since some of the historical periods she described encompassed millions of years, at first I didn’t know what “soon” was to her? Maybe it was hundreds of years. Then towards the end of the book, though, she names it: weeks. The changes were just weeks away.

I think she was right. It probably was weeks away. It probably had been imminent many years before her time and has been imminent many times since.

Her book is full of precious nuggets of spiritual gold, so it was a delight to read her book regardless of accuracy. Since I’ve been in her position at least two times myself – I could have written a book declaring “Earth changes imminent!” thirty-three years ago – I felt comforted that I was not alone having had a glorious vision, trusting it, shifting my life to ready for it and then living in the wasteland of the aftermath of it not unfolding. She did not write about the aftermath part of her life, but if she lived beyond the publishing of the book, she most certainly lived it.

Off Planet Tech 2

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In some circles on YouTube, there is a theory that Nicola Tesla was a fictional creation. Others pose he may have been an actual person, but stole his ideas from the preceding Earth civilization of the ancestors of Mu including Tartaria. Buildings from that global civilization show abundant use of structures that generated quantum, free energy.

I agree with the biograpical account of Nicola Tesla given by author Margaret Storm in her 1959 book, The Return of the Dove.” Tesla was from off-planet. He got his ideas, many of which were opposed and quashed by the fellows of Earth of his day, from the knowledge that is freely available in the cosmos. Why would he have to steal them from someone else or another Earth civilization that, despite their superior knowledge to the current human civilization, still likely knew less than him?

Maybe that is how you think when you do not live on a planet, but on a flat plane or a circuit board. I don’t know. But those of us who live on a planet in a cosmos can and should know that the blueprints of higher consciousness tech are freely available to a free humanity. So let’s get ourselves free.

Off-Planet- The Spiritual Tech is Everywhere

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I have been opening my mind and research into theories of Mudfloods and Resets lately. Even with all the unconventional material I’ve accepted over the years, some of the details of this FAR-reaching story are tough to accept.

The subject matter in this interview with Norman Dodd is some of the more unsettling but only because of the facts it describes. Those facts are disturbing and yet they present us with a powerful opportunity to set ourselves free.
The beauty of learning about some of the actual history of this planet is that it allows us to free ourselves of layers of perceptual filters that bind us. Even if we have been emotionally fond of them, we can work with those feelings and at the same time free our minds and souls.

I was going to write this post about the “Earth is a plane” theory I have encountered researching the Reset theories. I do not resonate with it. Consequently, I live on a planet. Never thought I’d have to qualify that belief, but that is what I am doing. So I have established that.
More later.

Bad Fiction

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Lord have mercy. I am working on an old iMac and it is so slow I want to pull my hair out. There is a widespread machine failure, dysfunction going on in my life. My laptop dying last Fall was part of that wave. That wave has been active for over a year now. Wow.
God love my friend Susan for giving me her 2103 iMac so I could type on something, but bless it, it is slow.
What does this ongoing wave of machine failure mean?

To be honest, I do not know with any certainty. I must admit, recently, after the brand new solar system completely failed and died, for a moment I felt like I was being targeted, like energetically, but that passed. I must stay out of that kind of thinking. It is useless and puts me in twisted “inner” territory. Mostly I feel abandoned by God and snubbed by my soul. Since I see my soul as the causal factor in my life, feeling snubbed by it is a problem. There are so many crazymaking aspects to this time in my life, feeling at odds or victimized by my soul is just one of them. It’s not as serious as it sounds meaning I do ultimately trust my soul, but I am leary of its messaging at the moment. (Ha).

I have alot to say today after having little for months. I will probably break it up into different posts. I will (try to) go back to some of the challenges of this in-between time. The time between worlds.

Machines are breaking. As I’ve said in many posts, everything on this planet, in our world will change down to the last blade of grass. When I first heard my teacher say that it hit home because I knew it. I knew it intuitively, with all my cells. It is the truth within me. The “what” of what will change has been a 50 yr educational process with some of the more difficult, sickening details of it only becoming clear or clearer the last 3-4 years. That’s where the bad fiction comes in. Thirty years ago I wrote: “This world is all fiction. Unfortunately it is bad fiction.” If you are going to create a world of duality and form, why not make it a pleasant world. Just like if you are going to write a story, why not make it a happy one? Especially when that story is a reality people live in. Yes, duality can suck, but it doesn’t have to suck the way it does in our world at the moment.

OK back to the dying machines. Everything will change, so machines will change too. My intuition tells me none of the machines we currently use will exist in the ascended Earth. It is a completely different field of consciousness, physics and form (hallelujah). So as this world dismantles, things will start to not work or maybe disappear…or both!

How much of my current life is a product of the dismantling of this existing reality? Not sure. If it were up to me we’d move quickly and smoothly from one dimensional world to the next, but instead there is this insanely long in-between time going on.
Perhaps in the grand scheme of things it is merciful, but to me it is not. So there is this long in-between time when you …I’ll speak for myself here, when I have to live in this world when I’m beyond (!) ready for the 5D one, but I still depend on the current world’s machines, economy, infrastructure, vehicles, much of which have been failing. The worst of it is that it feels scary. And yes, I admit that if I boil down that fear it is not only a fear of death or disability, but even, as I heard someone say recently, the soul fearing its own annihilation. I didn’t know souls did that, but I trust the source and I know that the worst of what I’m feeling when things fall apart is a kind of terror.

Disrupting

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The solar generator suddenly started taking in half of what it is supposed to and half of what it was taking in just days before. For no reason. It could only muster a third of a full charge on the battery at the most. We had very little electricity and there was nothing we could do about it. The generator is barely three years old. It should be doing better, but it is not.

Our truck has two threadbare tires that are barely eight months old and two very worn ones that are five months old.
These are just two of the vital resources that are challenged now, but there are numerous other important things that are not working: the gas generator, RV heater (our backup “go to” in freezing cold weather) and more.

The cat food for health issues that my cats desperately need is not coming in to the store in Taos I have to drive an hour and a half to get. Special ordered it weeks ago. Gee, they’re sorry, they say. I cannot just sub in food from Walmart – a mere hour’s drive away- because the one cat’s digestive system will just shut down if he doesn’t get the specialty food. The only place that has it is a 6 hr roundtrip drive.
I do the drive. On the threadbare tires. That held up, by the grace of God.

Virtually every aspect of my husband’s and my life is disrupted. The solutions to essential problems like getting food; anything (!) involving plumbing (we have none); driving – we must drive a minimum of an hour to get anything, except gas, when the place in town has it; heating; laundry – all of it is disrupted and solutions, that sometimes seem impossible, must be found. How can I get my cats food when the young truck keeps going through tires like tanks of gas and sometimes, like this past Fall, stops working altogether?

The Earth is shifting. The matrix we live in – which is the only reality to the majority of people on Earth – will disappear. I do not know when or how the entire shift will happen, but I know it is underway and will not only become more obvious, but will be all-inclusive. Everyone will feel it.

Like everything, people will experience it differently, but there will be a point when everyone will be affected. The old will not be available in the same way.
I am affected now, but I know others who are not as affected or even nearly so. But I do not see how that can remain when the deeper aspects of the shift materialize.

While there is a collective aspect to this life we are living, the journey is always an individual one first and foremost. My soul has its own reasons for putting me through what I am going through. However, I do wonder if part of the reason for this spiritual bootcamp experience in which I am immersed is so I can be a friend, one who has ” been there, ” to others when the ground starts to shift underneath their feet. It is a radically different way to live. It is cool because you must be creative on virtually every level of your being. There is no guide book. But it would be more fun if doing it didn’t suck so much of the time. Ha. Spirit’s sense of humor. It’s having a good laugh.

Humanity’s Request

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In our galaxy, there is a Galactic Senate. It has 300,000 members and humans of Earth are not on it.
We are not on it, because we have not shown we are worthy of being in this Senate. Let me be clear, by “worthy” I mean, we have not shown we are spiritually-advanced enough to be selected.
But the truth is we are spiritually-advanced enough, we just need to demonstrate it. We need to stop fighting, hating and letting lower frequencies and the “bad actors” that use them control our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. We ARE ready for this. Let’s show it.

Here is a statement some folks created this weekend to present to the Galactic Senate:

“We respectfully request representation based upon our unique experience and diversity.
We, as the sovereign human, express a blueprint as spirit in form, to demonstrate love, wisdom, courage and the integrity to evolve beyond the cosmos. We are ready!”

Make is so, people. Make it so.

The Breakup

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Y’know how in a relationship you have all this interest and belief in the other person and maybe you’re even madly in love with them.
But if any of those things shift, especially if you have no interest or belief in them, then the relationship falls apart?

This is a good analogy for what I am experiencing with the current reality. And truth is, I’ve been experiencing major disaffection for years.

But it’s like a big breakup. I see friends, some of whom know….know….there’s more than the muggle 3D (or allegedly now 4D- seems awfully similar) reality, but they still want something from the 3/4D experience. They still want some experience from it, so they live in it with harmony.
I guess a small part of that is still true for me or I would no longer be in this matrix, though what I’m painfully aware of most of the time is that I want it to shift. Out of existence.
So I’m in it, by a thread, waiting for my real love to arrive. Then I want to welcome that beloved in and tell you how – it’s yours too – it’s better than the deadbeat we had to break up with.
You’re probably not going to see that at first, but eventually you will. Then you’ll be like ” what was I thinking?” And I’ll say to you, “You were brainwashed to think that reality was THE shit and the only game in town. Now you know alot more and you can make different (better) choices.”

5D Physics are Different

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Sometimes I hear that it will take a long time for an ascended reality to unfold in practical, physical structures on our planet. That is understandable given the slow nature of the kind of 3/4 D we have lived in (for ages) and are living in, but 5D will be different. It will have different physics. Matter will appear quickly and move in the same way. Gravity? I don’t know the details, but I know we will master it in short order. This could happen sooner than most of us think.