Disrupting

The solar generator suddenly started taking in half of what it is supposed to and half of what it was taking in just days before. For no reason. It could only muster a third of a full charge on the battery at the most. We had very little electricity and there was nothing we could do about it. The generator is barely three years old. It should be doing better, but it is not.

Our truck has two threadbare tires that are barely eight months old and two very worn ones that are five months old.
These are just two of the vital resources that are challenged now, but there are numerous other important things that are not working: the gas generator, RV heater (our backup “go to” in freezing cold weather) and more.

The cat food for health issues that my cats desperately need is not coming in to the store in Taos I have to drive an hour and a half to get. Special ordered it weeks ago. Gee, they’re sorry, they say. I cannot just sub in food from Walmart – a mere hour’s drive away- because the one cat’s digestive system will just shut down if he doesn’t get the specialty food. The only place that has it is a 6 hr roundtrip drive.
I do the drive. On the threadbare tires. That held up, by the grace of God.

Virtually every aspect of my husband’s and my life is disrupted. The solutions to essential problems like getting food; anything (!) involving plumbing (we have none); driving – we must drive a minimum of an hour to get anything, except gas, when the place in town has it; heating; laundry – all of it is disrupted and solutions, that sometimes seem impossible, must be found. How can I get my cats food when the young truck keeps going through tires like tanks of gas and sometimes, like this past Fall, stops working altogether?

The Earth is shifting. The matrix we live in – which is the only reality to the majority of people on Earth – will disappear. I do not know when or how the entire shift will happen, but I know it is underway and will not only become more obvious, but will be all-inclusive. Everyone will feel it.

Like everything, people will experience it differently, but there will be a point when everyone will be affected. The old will not be available in the same way.
I am affected now, but I know others who are not as affected or even nearly so. But I do not see how that can remain when the deeper aspects of the shift materialize.

While there is a collective aspect to this life we are living, the journey is always an individual one first and foremost. My soul has its own reasons for putting me through what I am going through. However, I do wonder if part of the reason for this spiritual bootcamp experience in which I am immersed is so I can be a friend, one who has ” been there, ” to others when the ground starts to shift underneath their feet. It is a radically different way to live. It is cool because you must be creative on virtually every level of your being. There is no guide book. But it would be more fun if doing it didn’t suck so much of the time. Ha. Spirit’s sense of humor. It’s having a good laugh.

Zero is not Zero Point

Some spiritual traditions have what they call the “Via Negativa” and the “Via Positiva.” The Via Negativa and the Via Positiva refer to the paths taken to spiritual freedom. They also refer to the temperament of the spiritual aspirants on those paths as they are very different.

The Via Negative is the path of spiritual renunciation, material minimalism, and an inclination to see God better when there is less distraction from worldly things, noise, experience. The Negativa has a heavy dose of the spiritual destroyer in her. I fit into this category.

The Via Positiva, as best as I can tell since it is foreign to me, sees no conflict between worldliness – involvement in worldly, interactive contact; experiences; material things – and God. It is hard for me to fathom because so much of that reeks of ego to me. ( You must be thinking, “oh she would be fun at a party!”). I love and need a certain amount of people contact, travel and experiences in the world, but I also see that that kind of involvement can originate from fear and be a massive distraction. Life of the party. (Actually I love a good party).

I do not know if this vision of mine is even trustworthy. Does it come from spirit? Can’t be sure. What I do know is I see it constantly. I cannot look away from it.

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The Zero Point: I am looking for a definition online, but not seeing anything great. The closest definition that fits my intuition is this: “when quantum particles reach…zero…the particles then no longer contain any information about what state they were in before. Everything that may have happened to the particle before is perfectly erased.”

That definition is actually pretty cool. But rather than see the field as a bunch of particles, I see it as a field of potentiating, unlimited energy. The zero point field is a field of spiritual energy. It has zero charge, no predetermined form and it is also available for use. It was designed for human use. The quantum physicists could tell us where, if there is a where, it resides around planet Earth. It may be more accurate to say it infuses all the space in and around our planet.

It can be used to create unlimited electricity (see Nikola Tesla or the documentary “The Lost Century,” by Steven Greer), healing energy and potentials that are considered impossible by the current accepted system of reality and, further, anything you desire. The zero point is a state within you as well. When you program for a reality – intend a creation – you can take your program/intention (see it like a shape) to the zero point field for energizing into form. What you are imagining and intending is the shape and spirit or zero point energy gives that shape life. This is all something you can do with your own consciousness. There is outer technology based on this energy and it would be fun to have access to that kind of technology; it would change life as we know it on this planet. However, at this time, because of technology suppression, I suggest you work with your own consciousness. It can be a frustrating waiting game if you are hoping to use the technologies.

The Zero is not the Zero Point:

For those of us with the Negativa temperament who feel a certain rush from environmental minimalism and possess more than a dash of spiritual destroyer energy, it is sometimes helpful -perhaps more than just a little at times – to not conflate zero with zero point. What do I mean by that?

Essentially the Negativa can see absence as Presence. That can result in alot of blocking of life nutrients, including literal ones. People might call it a “holy anorexia,” but it is not that simple. Cutting out old ways of being, identifying and behaving can…can reveal deeper, previously hidden aspects of one’s “self.” There can be an increase of Presence in absence. Also, the emptying out of old ways can turn one – intentionally, unintentionally or both – to the zero point. In a sense you can empty out into the zero point. However, they are not the same. At times it is necessary to clarify that. I am going through that right now.

My life has emptied out in many ways. I am too close to the process to know exactly how or if that is benefiting me. I do know that I reached a point not that long ago where I said “no” to more of the zero. Zero car, amenities (almost zero), machines working and an abundance of upsetting outcomes. I cannot tell you how much “yes” I had in that game, I only know that now if I find myself thinking about the things that are gone or worst, the things that are chronically not working, I stop myself and say, “That is enough. I have had enough of that. It has done its job.”

Only you can know how much emptying you might need to get to a quantum field of freedom. The Positiva would say, “Why would you need emptying? There is God in everything.” I say, yes that is true, but how much are you secretly attached to everything? That is the issue. The inner, not the alleged outer, freedom is the issue and it is the only issue. I was willing to go through too much to get there. Now, I have no opinion about getting there, but I have a limit to the amount of zero I will endure.

How wintery it can feel

To those of you who have kept up with all the comings and goings with my blog site, thank you! So much is in flux, including my tech and web stuff, that things like websites and blog sites seem to be there one minute and gone the next.

What is on my mind today, is the wintery-ness of the spiritual journey. It feels that way sometimes, doesn’t it? I’m going through a wintery period and it feels very challenging. It’s all for spiritual and soul freedom which has been the fundamental passion of my life. But it is a passion that kind of kills all passion.

That probably sounds very depressing, but if our core is spiritual, silent and immovable, it is a different state than passion, as desirable and delicious as passion can feel. If true Spirit calls to you then you know there is nothing….nothing you can do to resist its call. At least nothing ultimately. We usually put all sorts of fillers in to distract ourselves and slow the distress that we might feel from the tension between the powerful ego and the Spirit. As dear teacher Byron Katie says, “Love kills everything but itself.” It can feel surprising – and is not for the faint of heart- to see how much of what we think we love is infused with other non-love elements within ourselves. It is ALL and only within ourselves. Nothing needs to be manipulated in the apparent outside world. Letting those elements within ourselves that feel good, but may not be pure (not my fave word, but will use it for now) love be consumed in our genuine love of Spirit can feel like a kind of death.

If you are not called by Spirit, all of this can – and probably does – sound awful and useless. Well, it can feel awful, but it is not useless. It is, however, for the courageous. I commend those of you out there willing to let the Love of Spirit, the Divine, consume everything but Itself. From my heart I send you Love.

Humanity’s Request

In our galaxy, there is a Galactic Senate. It has 300,000 members and humans of Earth are not on it.
We are not on it, because we have not shown we are worthy of being in this Senate. Let me be clear, by “worthy” I mean, we have not shown we are spiritually-advanced enough to be selected.
But the truth is we are spiritually-advanced enough, we just need to demonstrate it. We need to stop fighting, hating and letting lower frequencies and the “bad actors” that use them control our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. We ARE ready for this. Let’s show it.

Here is a statement some folks created this weekend to present to the Galactic Senate:

“We respectfully request representation based upon our unique experience and diversity.
We, as the sovereign human, express a blueprint as spirit in form, to demonstrate love, wisdom, courage and the integrity to evolve beyond the cosmos. We are ready!”

Make is so, people. Make it so.