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How Do You React When Things Fall Apart?

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When life falls apart (seems to) or things don’t go the way you wanted or expected, how do you react? Are you able to see beyond the narrative? The stories we internalized that filter how we see things. Perhaps one could call it the normative narrative. These stories & norms are everywhere and we have identified with them (as we were intensely taught to do: school, home, peer pressure, religion, media and more). Can you see beyond them? That is the gift, the great opportunity in the things falling apart experience.

In my case I’m breaking the norms (primarily) with my way of life, how I am living my day to day life. While I sometimes talk about it as something heroic (don’t get me wrong, it feels pretty frickin heroic), the fact is, I do not experience a choice in it. It is my soul’s call. Everything in life is our soul’s call, but sometimes we get to live our life in ways that comport or agree more with our ego structures, norms and our likes. But the soul is the puppeteer. It pulls the strings.

When the soul decides to turn up the volume – intensify for growth, wisdom – you will know it, because things tend to fall apart. It is not the only way the soul teaches, but it is a way that frequently happens. Can you see this happening when things fall apart?

I often feel like I’m the only one who sees this. It’s lonely.

We Are the Disclosure, but…..

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Lately I’ve been hearing a similar thing from sources I trust. They are saying we, the humans on Earth, are the impediment to full disclosure. It is not the organizations, governments, secret space programs, cabal, it is us. We have not integrated fully enough to handle the frequencies that disclosure will require.

Others would say we have not raised our vibration or raised our frequency enough. I won’t say that. It is a matter of integration, not ascending. We humans have endured and internalized aeons of conditioning about hierarchies, including the god matrix. Without our belief that we are less than, no hierarchical belief system could take hold. But hierarchical beliefs – all kinds – OWN us.

This is why it is important to understand the difference between the “bliss” of the false spirituality and the deep, unmoveable, soft heart of true integration. Even this makes it sound complicated, but it is not. However, discernment is very important.

We have not integrated our inner reality enough. Again, sounds complicated. When did you last judge your partner, child, neighbor, sibling, mother/father? That is part of the inner reality I’m talking about and you experience it constantly. Start there.

Years ago, someone I trust said (emphatically) that the soul will complete its mission no matter what. I used to get all lofty and feel a sense of power about that. But that is ego. That is the false spirituality. Don’t you want true freedom? It is beyond all good and all not-good. It is not a sensation of bliss. On its journey to freedom, the soul might take you to your knees. That is true power. Does it feel like it? False spirituality/bliss will crumble like a house of cards if the soul turns up its volume. It will not feel good.

You are it. I’ve said it many times, but it’s not a power trip and we know almost nothing but power trips. But we can change that. We can release the fake. Who pissed you off today? Get still and ask the “judge your neighbor” worksheet questions in stillness. This is the power that does not feel like power, but is.

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Oh, blog! You get all my thoughts that are hot off the press and you are the press.

I started watching a YouTube video about massive data centers currently being built in America. I do not know if the YT creator mentioned facilities in other parts of the world? I will watch the entire video today and find out.

My intuition told me years ago that this whole “realm” would spiritually burn down from the inside out. That was over 35 years ago. It has been an interesting journey to know this information intuitively, yet live in a system- financial, education, government, energy usage – and a planetary aspect – this “crust” of the planet and what it represents -that has remained mostly intact. It is not a journey for the faint of heart.

Let me start with the lede and not bury it: There is no reason to fear. It is very easy to live in fear now and read what I’m writing as a reason to fear. I am stating some of the current facts as I know them. My hope is to help open your eyes and, if anything, be less inclined to fear. There is no reason to fear.

As I have said in several posts, the control mechanisms for this planet and our humanity that are active now are mind-boggling. We are under siege. These mechanisms are in our air, food, medication, 5G, media, technical intelligence working through malevolent tech, the god matrix and more. We are both energetically and physically implanted or overlaid with control mechanisms in/on our bodies (pineal, kundalini, chakras, third eye). I think it is wise to be aware of the full scope of control mechanisms, so you can see more clearly what is happening and know what you are looking at.

At the same time, you must know who you are: a full universal fractal. Just by being human at this time, you have access to power that is unimaginable and exceeds (it exceeds!) ALL the control mechanisms. You just need to remember who you are. And welcome your innate powers as they come to the fore – as they are remembered and reintegrated – in the coming years.

You also need to say “no” to the false powers that seek to own you. The AI takeover attempt is big now, but there are other ones, bliss-y ones, to come down the line. Learn to discern.

You are innately more powerful than all of this. There is no reason to fear.

While I detest what is going on with the destruction of the planet and its gorgeous variety of species. While I ache for what has been lost by the imposition of AI (my friend insists that it is rightly called Technical Intelligence and I’m getting there, but when writing about it, most people know it as “AI”), I know this is part of the plan.

I used to see that preserving “what was” on this planet was important. I was in grief most of the time for what was being destroyed of what was. But here is what I know:

– There is a time for everything and the “what was” of this planet is coming to a close. Putting energy into saving what was is not useful, including not useful to the planetary essence herself.

When I say something like this, it will take wisdom on the part of the reader to hear this and not fall into the mindset of doomsday and painful prophecy. I am not saying this.

This being said, I live the way I must to keep some degree of sanity. I live in a way that connects me to what is vital and relatively unsullied by the control mechanisms. Remember, it is all relative. There is no place on Earth now that is not subject to some of this control. Still, I do the best I can.

I live off-grid. I live in a remote area, 8600 feet in the air. I live around nature and little else. I get out most mornings and take in the light of the rising sun in my eyes and on my skin (this has profound effects…I can’t even explain them all).
I wear blue-light blocking glasses when I look at screens. I wear them full-time at night if we have any artificial light on. If I turn off the solar battery and WiFi, the only light in my environment is sun and star light. As I mentioned, there is more to this than I can explain. I trust. I take the actions.

There is no reason to fear.

Why worship?

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Worship. Where does it come from? It comes from the god story. It is a control mechanism designed by the priestly caste to give them the energy they feed on.
We send forth energy when we worship. Worship seems very pure to those who do it, but it is actually tainted with fear. Why would you worship if you did not fear?

Worship is a control mechanism. It starts with the belief that we, humanity, are less-than or lacking. This is the keystone of the god story: god is the creator of all that is and we are, at best, its child. Definitely less than. Then the story sprinkles in “born of sin” – screwed from the get-go – adds a generous serving of heaven and hell and we end up scared of our own shadow (literally). It trains us to seek power outside ourselves. That is the real power play of the god story and the hologram of the gods.

It is the ultimate consumerism. The narrative tells you that what you want is, de facto, outside yourself and worship is the currency you must pay to (try to) buy it back. All worship – celebs, kings, gods, Beyonce – stems from that lie. (o.k., not cat worship, because that is based on absolute truth!).

You are it. You really are. It is built into you just because you are human. You must give up the religious and hierarchical ideologies and the worship. It will take courage. It is time.

One More Time For the Cheap Seats: The Advantage of the No-Escape Life

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The advantage (that feels like a total disadvantage) of the no-escape life is, well, if you feel imprisoned or stuck, you cannot rely on behaviors or even thought-constructs you may have used in the past to look away from certain beliefs and feelings you hold. At least not in the same way. I don’t know about you, but this doesn’t feel good to me.

But it’s not always about feeling good.

This fact will bring up a host of reactions. You will face them because you cannot escape the situation. Not only will you look at the reactions you are experiencing, but it will serve you to look at how you are perceiving the situation itself.

For me the issue of money, earning, worth and creating have been sticky ones. Here in my life of little distraction (I still try!) are some of the underlying issues I’ve noticed feel constricting on these issues:

  1. Feeling like a slave.
    A slave to the good opinion of others. (huge)
    A slave to:
    – work trends
    – what is considered good business
    – what is considered real
    – what is considered worthy, authoritative
    – what has “real” substance
    – what is considered crazy or sane
    – who deserves to be paid well and who doesn’t
    – what I have to do or not do to be paid well

    The list goes on with that one.

Some of the others are: navigating different-ness; sensitivity; self-worth; the right to be; the right to speak; fear of visibility. That is what I’ve noticed just on that one subject.

These issues are both cultural (in the largest sense) and personal. Or they seem personal. Part of the alchemy process is looking at the sense of how personal the “issues” feel. That is an important part of blending them back into center, zero point and moving beyond.

Your job, should you choose to accept it ;^) – is to become aware of both aspects: the larger cultural one, by which I mean the imposition by other cultures into our thought, spiritual and physical realm and the personal.
The cultural impositions play a huge role. Part of this control system has resulted in humanity as a collective, not knowing or acknowledging there are other cultures who live off-planet and interdimensionally. Nor do we understand the profound role they have played and continue to play in our lives and experience of reality. So much easier to control a species when part of how you do it is deny your very existence. It is hard to believe something is influencing you that doesn’t exist.

You might think this is crazy talk that has nothing to do with you. You’re wrong.

The control system encompasses almost everything about reality except your heart-soul essence or your is-ness, however you term it. The no-escape life gives you the opportunity to become aware of these influences more quickly and to see what part of this mix you feel most identified with, as in: triggered; attached to; repulsed by; intensely wanting of; defining your self-worth by or even what you value. It is the is-ness, the “immediacy” within to which you bring all the attachments of concept, memory, identity.
(It is not god. If you are bringing this inner material to god, you are not exiting the matrix. You are looping back into the control/containment sphere.)

The no-escape life, especially if it is lived in a remote area like mine, gives you the quietude and lack of distraction (arghh) to see this inner material more clearly. This is truly the first step to dissolving it. It gives you an accelerated opportunity to blend the positive & negative, dissolve it and move more intensely inward to the unified field. That is true freedom. This is why it is an advantage. This is the path to completing your soul’s journey in this universe. It is the reason you are here.

More Advantage of No-Escape

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I almost titled the first part of this blog, “The Value of No-Escape.” Yes, I think there is value, hence the blogs, but there is more than just value to the rug-pull and the no-escape life (see Pt 1 for explanation of no-harm): they are are advantages. Distinct advantages.

If your job in this life is to face your shadow side and integrate it, there is nothing like (allegedly) having many of your choices taken away to accelerate that process. Again, I don’t mean anything harmful or being held victim/prisoner by other human(s).

Does it feel good? Hell, no. While I am a very big fan of feeling good, sometimes that isn’t the most important thing. Sometimes you have to take a big ole bite of spiritual work and it just doesn’t feel good.

Invariably – I’ve mentioned this before – when I have told people of the discomfort with my current way of life, they say, “Why don’t you move?” That kind of disconnect pisses me off, but lately it is starting to seem funny. I don’t want to waste time on this silliness, but I’ll state the obvious: “I’m a grown woman. I know what the alleged options are.” For some reason these people think that thought has not occurred to me.

We’re programmed…..I’m going to finish that sentence, but for a moment I want to let it stand as is: we are programmed. In every conceivable way. (More silliness out there when people think they are not mind-controlled). So, when/if I tell people I’m feeling uncomfortable – I’m really just trying to communicate honestly – most tend to insert my info into one manipulated perceptual filter or another. Usually just the one. Why don’t I move? (uh, don’t have the resources to do that). Oh, you must be down on your luck. (where did you get those words? do you have the slightest idea?). You get the gist.

The perceptual filter or maybe the intuitive knowing that does not seem to arise is: “Dang, girl. You’re in a rug-pull, no-escape accelerated stage of fractal compression and integration. That’s brave. Good on ya!”

That would be nice.

To be fair, some lovely people I know DO get that. It is a comfort.

Lots more to say and I will, but I think I’ll keep publishing along the way. Otherwise, there will be massive verbiage all in one place.

The Advantage of No-Escape

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I’ve been thinking today (and every day for the last three years) about the advantage of the rug-pull and the no-escape life. First, know, I am not talking about literal imprisonment or anything harmful. Also, my no-escape has been set up by my soul/inner being. No one else is controlling it. I’d love to say I never feel like a victim, but the truth is I often feel like a victim. Still, I know that my soul/inner being calls the shots. I am not a victim. The push-pull of feeling like a victim while not being one is the crux, or one of them, of what is getting worked out during this time of no-escape.