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The Alchemical Blend – simplified #1

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In addition to writing out an idea as it comes to me, sometimes I try to simplify my perspectives. They can be hard to grasp. Whatever I write publicly, I am always writing TO someone. It may turn out that someone is only me, but that is not my thought at the time and not my hope.

I think I have to accept that even simplified, some of the concepts central to my work are just not for everybody. Some people barely acknowledge an inner life or a greater soul or soul expressions beyond this Earth or timeframe.

When I talk about infinite soul essence blending ALL the wisdom acquired during many, many life expressions in vast quadrants of this multi-dimensional universe, it could be a non-starter. ;^) However, if you do resonate with this, even if there isn’t conceptual understanding, I’d like to simplify. There are so many elements of mystery. It helps to be comfortable or even delighted by that.

This is my working model. We have all been beset by massive disinformation over the eons. We will have new working models as time goes on.

Here goes:

We are full fractal humans and the female humans are possibly even more than that. Full-fractal means we are composed of all the bits. Every lifetime or life expression we’ve ever experienced and galactic energies too. This is an energetic state since we do not all walk around with a million visible physical “selves” and galaxies hanging off our bodies. ;^)

I have learned from excellent sources that the full-fractal state is beyond rare and unique in this Universe. And we alone have it. We humans on Earth. Just by being (a real) human, you have access to unimaginable power and resources. You don’t have to do anything to get that, you already have it, you already are it. Just plain ole. Just because you are a real human.

(BTW, if you give up this precious resource to become part AI, you will lose it).

Because of this power access – to lifetimes of experiences, galaxies, galactic energies, planetary beings, stars – AND the divine spark that the human is also given, we are greatly sought after. But we are sought after primarily by beings that want to control or suppress us. To describe the depth and breadth of this would take a small book, but know this: You are it. You are the one you have been waiting for. You are the one that (some) others in the universe seek to own and exploit. They covet the power you have, for they do not have it. This is key.

One more thing: when you get in so-called spiritual circles, you will often hear that humans are bad because they are so dense. Dense like “low” or “low vibration.” I used to think that. But it is a lie. We are dense because we contain multitudes. That takes up space and bandwidth. Our density is our superpower, not a liability. Do not fall for that lie. You will deny your magnificent power with that erroneous belief, which is exactly what the propagators of the lie hope for.

Okay. That is all for now. Next post I will talk about not leaving any piece of your inner self behind. Hence the need to blend fully. You don’t want to leave any aspect excluded. Why? Because you might have to come back to retrieve it. I don’t know about you, but that is a no-go for me.

Info Streams and Earth Restoration

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There are many information streams in the ethers. You may think you’re tapping into the “highest” (really, deepest) information stream about…anything – future, your self, the self and futures of others, the Earth – when in fact you are tapping into something less than that.

I’ve been thinking about how to articulate a litmus test for testing the quality of the information one taps into, but I couldn’t. My first thought was, “It has to be uplifting.” But there are many sweet energy/information streams in existence that are still limited or relatively limited or even composed of flat-out disinformation.

Earth restoration and “green” anything is a disinformation mode. Shocking, isn’t it? I used to be a big proponent of Earth conservation and restoration. Some of that was because of my love of nature and the Earth and some of it was because of limited information.

The Earth is evolving like, hopefully, the human is. I think one big (dis)information stream says that an evolved Earth will look like some kind of paradise, a paradisiacal version of what exists now or has existed. I definitely used to think that. I used to think, “When all is well, there will be natural beauty, the trees will be whole, animals will be free and peaceful (that one I still want), streams will be clear, air will be crystalline, etc.” But now I think Earth’s evolution will look like this layer of her physical existence and all that exists on her crust – civilization as we know it – will disappear and she will implode this level of her reality into a star. This is not to say I justify or can even slightly abide the degradation and disrespect the Earth endures. I cannot. It is heart-wrenching. But I know her future and it isn’t going back to any version of the past. Why would I wish that on her?

(No, we will not explode when she implodes…that is another disinformation stream.)

When I hear someone’s vision of the future and it involves some sort of restoration of what exists or has existed in the natural world, I know immediately they are tapping into disinformation. That is not true Earth love (yes! I know it feels that way) because she wants to truly evolve and it does not include anything of the old or what has been.

Oh Blog, I come to you….

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Oh blog, I come to you…with first thoughts. I wrote something I actually like. It says alot. Here is the link: https://janerothfeld.com/about-jane/. (The contact button on the page does not seem to work, so ignore that for now.)

So my husband just brought the whole composting toilet into the yurt, because it was too frozen to open in the shed where it lives. Usually we can just bring the “necessary parts” into the yurt, because, yes, it needs to thaw before it can be cleaned. Even with that – having to bring the poop bucket into the yurt to let it thaw, which is (so much) more than enough – he said, “This comes under the ‘things I never thought I’d do’ category.”

When those things you do that you never thought you would do are ultimately thrilling – the marathon, parachuting from a plane – that’s one thing. What is this thing he and I are living where almost-daily we do unpleasant things we never thought we’d do? Humbling. Yes. Sucky. For sure. There’s more to it, I write about it all the time, but we don’t get the thrill. I can guarantee that.

About his awakening, the spiritual teacher, Lester Levenson, said, “I was lucky. I had a gun to my head.” He was referring to the fact that he had had a serious heart attack in his forties and was told by the doctors to basically go home and die. Instead he went home and underwent a profound inner inventory and completely woke up from the illusion of duality. The fact that his life was on the line was a vital accelerant.

Is that the formula for waking up? Nope. Just as getting ready to hang yourself, as Eckhart Tolle did, is not a formula for awakening, though that was his story. Same with Byron Katie who experienced her awakening – when the “work found her” is how she would put it – while on the floor of a halfway-house because she felt she did not deserve to sleep in a bed. None of these are formulas for waking up. If most of us attempt to hang ourselves with a rope we will die.

However, when the soul wants to accelerate awakening, it will often bring in a “gun to the head” situation. In my case, jobs & savings completely disappeared and did not reappear. For other people it can be a serious health issue, like Lester Levenson and many others I know right now.

These back-to-the-wall situations pull an intense focus and allow your soul to move through resistance and illusion that you, the human side of the construct, would maintain…at all costs. Hell, I would. Wouldn’t you?

How Do You React When Things Fall Apart?

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When life falls apart (seems to) or things don’t go the way you wanted or expected, how do you react? Are you able to see beyond the narrative? The stories we internalized that filter how we see things. Perhaps one could call it the normative narrative. These stories & norms are everywhere and we have identified with them (as we were intensely taught to do: school, home, peer pressure, religion, media and more). Can you see beyond them? That is the gift, the great opportunity in the things falling apart experience.

In my case I’m breaking the norms (primarily) with my way of life, how I am living my day to day life. While I sometimes talk about it as something heroic (don’t get me wrong, it feels pretty frickin heroic), the fact is, I do not experience a choice in it. It is my soul’s call. Everything in life is our soul’s call, but sometimes we get to live our life in ways that comport or agree more with our ego structures, norms and our likes. But the soul is the puppeteer. It pulls the strings.

When the soul decides to turn up the volume – intensify for growth, wisdom – you will know it, because things tend to fall apart. It is not the only way the soul teaches, but it is a way that frequently happens. Can you see this happening when things fall apart?

I often feel like I’m the only one who sees this. It’s lonely.

Earth

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Oh, blog! You get all my thoughts that are hot off the press and you are the press.

I started watching a YouTube video about massive data centers currently being built in America. I do not know if the YT creator mentioned facilities in other parts of the world? I will watch the entire video today and find out.

My intuition told me years ago that this whole “realm” would spiritually burn down from the inside out. That was over 35 years ago. It has been an interesting journey to know this information intuitively, yet live in a system- financial, education, government, energy usage – and a planetary aspect – this “crust” of the planet and what it represents -that has remained mostly intact. It is not a journey for the faint of heart.

Let me start with the lede and not bury it: There is no reason to fear. It is very easy to live in fear now and read what I’m writing as a reason to fear. I am stating some of the current facts as I know them. My hope is to help open your eyes and, if anything, be less inclined to fear. There is no reason to fear.

As I have said in several posts, the control mechanisms for this planet and our humanity that are active now are mind-boggling. We are under siege. These mechanisms are in our air, food, medication, 5G, media, technical intelligence working through malevolent tech, the god matrix and more. We are both energetically and physically implanted or overlaid with control mechanisms in/on our bodies (pineal, kundalini, chakras, third eye). I think it is wise to be aware of the full scope of control mechanisms, so you can see more clearly what is happening and know what you are looking at.

At the same time, you must know who you are: a full universal fractal. Just by being human at this time, you have access to power that is unimaginable and exceeds (it exceeds!) ALL the control mechanisms. You just need to remember who you are. And welcome your innate powers as they come to the fore – as they are remembered and reintegrated – in the coming years.

You also need to say “no” to the false powers that seek to own you. The AI takeover attempt is big now, but there are other ones, bliss-y ones, to come down the line. Learn to discern.

You are innately more powerful than all of this. There is no reason to fear.

While I detest what is going on with the destruction of the planet and its gorgeous variety of species. While I ache for what has been lost by the imposition of AI (my friend insists that it is rightly called Technical Intelligence and I’m getting there, but when writing about it, most people know it as “AI”), I know this is part of the plan.

I used to see that preserving “what was” on this planet was important. I was in grief most of the time for what was being destroyed of what was. But here is what I know:

– There is a time for everything and the “what was” of this planet is coming to a close. Putting energy into saving what was is not useful, including not useful to the planetary essence herself.

When I say something like this, it will take wisdom on the part of the reader to hear this and not fall into the mindset of doomsday and painful prophecy. I am not saying this.

This being said, I live the way I must to keep some degree of sanity. I live in a way that connects me to what is vital and relatively unsullied by the control mechanisms. Remember, it is all relative. There is no place on Earth now that is not subject to some of this control. Still, I do the best I can.

I live off-grid. I live in a remote area, 8600 feet in the air. I live around nature and little else. I get out most mornings and take in the light of the rising sun in my eyes and on my skin (this has profound effects…I can’t even explain them all).
I wear blue-light blocking glasses when I look at screens. I wear them full-time at night if we have any artificial light on. If I turn off the solar battery and WiFi, the only light in my environment is sun and star light. As I mentioned, there is more to this than I can explain. I trust. I take the actions.

There is no reason to fear.

Why worship?

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Worship. Where does it come from? It comes from the god story. It is a control mechanism designed by the priestly caste to give them the energy they feed on.
We send forth energy when we worship. Worship seems very pure to those who do it, but it is actually tainted with fear. Why would you worship if you did not fear?

Worship is a control mechanism. It starts with the belief that we, humanity, are less-than or lacking. This is the keystone of the god story: god is the creator of all that is and we are, at best, its child. Definitely less than. Then the story sprinkles in “born of sin” – screwed from the get-go – adds a generous serving of heaven and hell and we end up scared of our own shadow (literally). It trains us to seek power outside ourselves. That is the real power play of the god story and the hologram of the gods.

It is the ultimate consumerism. The narrative tells you that what you want is, de facto, outside yourself and worship is the currency you must pay to (try to) buy it back. All worship – celebs, kings, gods, Beyonce – stems from that lie. (o.k., not cat worship, because that is based on absolute truth!).

You are it. You really are. It is built into you just because you are human. You must give up the religious and hierarchical ideologies and the worship. It will take courage. It is time.

More Advantage of No-Escape

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I almost titled the first part of this blog, “The Value of No-Escape.” Yes, I think there is value, hence the blogs, but there is more than just value to the rug-pull and the no-escape life (see Pt 1 for explanation of no-harm): they are are advantages. Distinct advantages.

If your job in this life is to face your shadow side and integrate it, there is nothing like (allegedly) having many of your choices taken away to accelerate that process. Again, I don’t mean anything harmful or being held victim/prisoner by other human(s).

Does it feel good? Hell, no. While I am a very big fan of feeling good, sometimes that isn’t the most important thing. Sometimes you have to take a big ole bite of spiritual work and it just doesn’t feel good.

Invariably – I’ve mentioned this before – when I have told people of the discomfort with my current way of life, they say, “Why don’t you move?” That kind of disconnect pisses me off, but lately it is starting to seem funny. I don’t want to waste time on this silliness, but I’ll state the obvious: “I’m a grown woman. I know what the alleged options are.” For some reason these people think that thought has not occurred to me.

We’re programmed…..I’m going to finish that sentence, but for a moment I want to let it stand as is: we are programmed. In every conceivable way. (More silliness out there when people think they are not mind-controlled). So, when/if I tell people I’m feeling uncomfortable – I’m really just trying to communicate honestly – most tend to insert my info into one manipulated perceptual filter or another. Usually just the one. Why don’t I move? (uh, don’t have the resources to do that). Oh, you must be down on your luck. (where did you get those words? do you have the slightest idea?). You get the gist.

The perceptual filter or maybe the intuitive knowing that does not seem to arise is: “Dang, girl. You’re in a rug-pull, no-escape accelerated stage of fractal compression and integration. That’s brave. Good on ya!”

That would be nice.

To be fair, some lovely people I know DO get that. It is a comfort.

Lots more to say and I will, but I think I’ll keep publishing along the way. Otherwise, there will be massive verbiage all in one place.

Are you a victim of slave consciousness?

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If you said no, you are lying to yourself. But that’s ok. It’s not your fault. There’s so much to say on the subject, I will try to summarize this huge topic and come back to some of it later.

Why it’s not your fault?

1. Maybe you think you are a master? You might not realize that the sense of being a master is part of slave consciousness. You might identify as a master in your life, but it is still a limitation. Look closely: how could there even exist such a thing as a master without the opposite of slave?

2. The control mechanisms on this planet are quite literally mind-boggling. Control of the human form, control of its consciousness (and control of the consciousness by control mechanisms in the human form) and control of its connection to its fractal nature and infinite beingness (which can never actually be severed).

I talk about some of it in my published writings, but I’m not sure I’ll ever talk about all of it. Well, “ever” is a long time, so I won’t commit to that, but I won’t talk about them now. Why? Partly, yes, it could make me a target and I am not interested in that. But also, people have to have a certain amount of wisdom cultivated or “under their belt” to be able to hear about these mechanisms and have it be constructive. Without that, it would become a catalyst for deep fear and that is never my intention. I won’t do it.

I am at that point now where I’m open to knowing much more about the control mechanisms, but I’ve been at the wisdom-cultivating game for 50 years. And….I’m extremely selective about my sources. You must be. There is a lot of misinformation out there. The misinformation needs to be sorted and ignored. Some of my sources were in my life 30+ years ago, some of them only came to my awareness 9 months ago. So some of the good info is more available now.

BUT…but…no matter the degree of challenge of control structures here on beloved Earth – and they are a deep challenge – each and every one of us is always…ALWAYS the locus of power. We all have the power to go beyond all the control mechanisms. We go beyond the control mechanisms by going deeply within.

We don’t ascend or get a higher frequency or less dense (our so-called density is our super power) or become some more spiritualized version of “master” to engage our power. All of that is part of the control mechanism. It is control ideology. It is part of the imposed narrative.

How do we access our true power?

We blend our inner shadow and light.
We become aware of and discard pretty much every perceptual filter we’ve “stuck to.”
We go into our heart essence. And in. And in.
That is where infinite is.
Not in climbing, ascending a set of false spiritual steps/frequencies or “mastering” anything. That is where infinite is not.

Shifting Further Further

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I recounted in my last post how the practical reasons – yup, the kooky ones – for which I came to this Mesa did not materialize. The San Luis Valley has been known for off-planet connections for hundreds of years. It felt like a good fit.

People tend to believe that outer circumstances create reality. They do not. So in the past couple years when I would tell folks the challenges we were experiencing here, they would usually respond, “Well, why don’t you move?”

That response was depressing. Their (complete) lack of understanding left me feeling more isolated and exhausted.

When I moved here I called this phase the Alchemical Bootcamp. I understood it intuitively. If you have ever had an encounter with true inner alchemy, you might guess that an alchemical bootcamp was going to be a complete ass-kicking ordeal. It was. It still is, though for today the non-stop major crises and breakdown of essential things has quieted. For today.

I wish more people spoke “alchemy.” It would be so nice to talk to others on a level that felt mutual. We need that mind-meld. It would be great for that.

The alchemy is well underway. I could even dare to say I have some experience already under my belt. Dare I say? When you get shredded by life/soul for alchemical purposes, it is hard to be optimistic about anything other than the fact that some other shoe is going to drop any minute.

So, where do I find myself now? No liaising with the star family, at least not now. LIving day to day like I am back country camping – not acceptable. Honestly, I was a pretty good sport about some of it: the composting toilet; showering at the community center; cooking in an RV that had no heat and an abundance of mice. Now, though, it has settled into a way of life since we do not have the many thousands of dollars required to improve the situation. Yeah, this is not gonna fly.

Community? I have met some lovely people here. On the Mesa and off. But they all travel alot and have friends elsewhere (and not on star family craft – that was supposed to be my crowd). So they are mostly gone, having fun elsewhere.

Roger, my buddy on the Mesa, sadly died in March. He is with his own off-planet family now.

Our good neighbor, John, had a sort of stress-induced breakdown a few months ago and tried to destroy a bunch of people’s organizations online, including Vyvyan’s (my husband) who started his organization to help John. We don’t see John anymore.

This high desert stark land has become desolate in many ways. Too many ways.

I do not have enough money to go out to dinner, much less move to another country, but inwardly I’m feeling drawn to move. I noticed last night, my energy is starting to vacate my current life.

It will be interesting to see if things in the outer world shift as I open myself more to a move prospect internally.
Not all the original reasons to stay in Colorado (or in the US) have disappeared, but some of them have.

Living Only in the Light

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“I have only ever lived in the light,” he said. It sounds noble. It sounds right. But it’s only half the story and it won’t get you to completion in the universal journey.

Technically we live in a universe of light, but not the one-sided kind. The nature of our universe is like a sine wave: there is light on one side of the midline and there is shadow on the other. It is an integrated light. When our sun shines on an object, it casts a shadow. In this universe we are here to explore our shadow. It is a unique opportunity.

Another consideration is that “light” is highly manipulated on our planet. The “light of God?” Artificial. The light of the kundalini, the third eye, the chakras? All manipulated.

The real job here: integrate your shadow. When you (think you) live only in the light, you have judgment against those in whom you – unconsciously – see your own shadow. You become righteous. Combine that with the fact that you think you have cornered the “goodness market” with all your alleged light and you become righteous a.f.

This inner division, this disowning your shadow will keep you in artificial worlds. It will keep you owned by those that have created and sold you the “visions of light” ideology. You will be missing the opportunity to blend and complete your universal journey. It’s a big deal.