When life falls apart (seems to) or things don’t go the way you wanted or expected, how do you react? Are you able to see beyond the narrative? The stories we internalized that filter how we see things. Perhaps one could call it the normative narrative. These stories & norms are everywhere and we have identified with them (as we were intensely taught to do: school, home, peer pressure, religion, media and more). Can you see beyond them? That is the gift, the great opportunity in the things falling apart experience.
In my case I’m breaking the norms (primarily) with my way of life, how I am living my day to day life. While I sometimes talk about it as something heroic (don’t get me wrong, it feels pretty frickin heroic), the fact is, I do not experience a choice in it. It is my soul’s call. Everything in life is our soul’s call, but sometimes we get to live our life in ways that comport or agree more with our ego structures, norms and our likes. But the soul is the puppeteer. It pulls the strings.
When the soul decides to turn up the volume – intensify for growth, wisdom – you will know it, because things tend to fall apart. It is not the only way the soul teaches, but it is a way that frequently happens. Can you see this happening when things fall apart?
I often feel like I’m the only one who sees this. It’s lonely.
Lately I’ve been hearing a similar thing from sources I trust. They are saying we, the humans on Earth, are the impediment to full disclosure. It is not the organizations, governments, secret space programs, cabal, it is us. We have not integrated fully enough to handle the frequencies that disclosure will require.
Others would say we have not raised our vibration or raised our frequency enough. I won’t say that. It is a matter of integration, not ascending. We humans have endured and internalized aeons of conditioning about hierarchies, including the god matrix. Without our belief that we are less than, no hierarchical belief system could take hold. But hierarchical beliefs – all kinds – OWN us.
This is why it is important to understand the difference between the “bliss” of the false spirituality and the deep, unmoveable, soft heart of true integration. Even this makes it sound complicated, but it is not. However, discernment is very important.
We have not integrated our inner reality enough. Again, sounds complicated. When did you last judge your partner, child, neighbor, sibling, mother/father? That is part of the inner reality I’m talking about and you experience it constantly. Start there.
Years ago, someone I trust said (emphatically) that the soul will complete its mission no matter what. I used to get all lofty and feel a sense of power about that. But that is ego. That is the false spirituality. Don’t you want true freedom? It is beyond all good and all not-good. It is not a sensation of bliss. On its journey to freedom, the soul might take you to your knees. That is true power. Does it feel like it? False spirituality/bliss will crumble like a house of cards if the soul turns up its volume. It will not feel good.
You are it. I’ve said it many times, but it’s not a power trip and we know almost nothing but power trips. But we can change that. We can release the fake. Who pissed you off today? Get still and ask the “judge your neighbor” worksheet questions in stillness. This is the power that does not feel like power, but is.
Worship. Where does it come from? It comes from the god story. It is a control mechanism designed by the priestly caste to give them the energy they feed on. We send forth energy when we worship. Worship seems very pure to those who do it, but it is actually tainted with fear. Why would you worship if you did not fear?
Worship is a control mechanism. It starts with the belief that we, humanity, are less-than or lacking. This is the keystone of the god story: god is the creator of all that is and we are, at best, its child. Definitely less than. Then the story sprinkles in “born of sin” – screwed from the get-go – adds a generous serving of heaven and hell and we end up scared of our own shadow (literally). It trains us to seek power outside ourselves. That is the real power play of the god story and the hologram of the gods.
It is the ultimate consumerism. The narrative tells you that what you want is, de facto, outside yourself and worship is the currency you must pay to (try to) buy it back. All worship – celebs, kings, gods, Beyonce – stems from that lie. (o.k., not cat worship, because that is based on absolute truth!).
You are it. You really are. It is built into you just because you are human. You must give up the religious and hierarchical ideologies and the worship. It will take courage. It is time.
The advantage (that feels like a total disadvantage) of the no-escape life is, well, if you feel imprisoned or stuck, you cannot rely on behaviors or even thought-constructs you may have used in the past to look away from certain beliefs and feelings you hold. At least not in the same way. I don’t know about you, but this doesn’t feel good to me.
But it’s not always about feeling good.
This fact will bring up a host of reactions. You will face them because you cannot escape the situation. Not only will you look at the reactions you are experiencing, but it will serve you to look at how you are perceiving the situation itself.
For me the issue of money, earning, worth and creating have been sticky ones. Here in my life of little distraction (I still try!) are some of the underlying issues I’ve noticed feel constricting on these issues:
Feeling like a slave. A slave to the good opinion of others. (huge) A slave to: – work trends – what is considered good business – what is considered real – what is considered worthy, authoritative – what has “real” substance – what is considered crazy or sane – who deserves to be paid well and who doesn’t – what I have to do or not do to be paid well
The list goes on with that one.
Some of the others are: navigating different-ness; sensitivity; self-worth; the right to be; the right to speak; fear of visibility. That is what I’ve noticed just on that one subject.
These issues are both cultural (in the largest sense) and personal. Or they seem personal. Part of the alchemy process is looking at the sense of how personal the “issues” feel. That is an important part of blending them back into center, zero point and moving beyond.
Your job, should you choose to accept it ;^) – is to become aware of both aspects: the larger cultural one, by which I mean the imposition by other cultures into our thought, spiritual and physical realm and the personal. The cultural impositions play a huge role. Part of this control system has resulted in humanity as a collective, not knowing or acknowledging there are other cultures who live off-planet and interdimensionally. Nor do we understand the profound role they have played and continue to play in our lives and experience of reality. So much easier to control a species when part of how you do it is deny your very existence. It is hard to believe something is influencing you that doesn’t exist.
You might think this is crazy talk that has nothing to do with you. You’re wrong.
The control system encompasses almost everything about reality except your heart-soul essence or your is-ness, however you term it. The no-escape life gives you the opportunity to become aware of these influences more quickly and to see what part of this mix you feel most identified with, as in: triggered; attached to; repulsed by; intensely wanting of; defining your self-worth by or even what you value. It is the is-ness, the “immediacy” within to which you bring all the attachments of concept, memory, identity. (It is not god. If you are bringing this inner material to god, you are not exiting the matrix. You are looping back into the control/containment sphere.)
The no-escape life, especially if it is lived in a remote area like mine, gives you the quietude and lack of distraction (arghh) to see this inner material more clearly. This is truly the first step to dissolving it. It gives you an accelerated opportunity to blend the positive & negative, dissolve it and move more intensely inward to the unified field. That is true freedom. This is why it is an advantage. This is the path to completing your soul’s journey in this universe. It is the reason you are here.
If you said no, you are lying to yourself. But that’s ok. It’s not your fault. There’s so much to say on the subject, I will try to summarize this huge topic and come back to some of it later.
Why it’s not your fault?
1. Maybe you think you are a master? You might not realize that the sense of being a master is part of slave consciousness. You might identify as a master in your life, but it is still a limitation. Look closely: how could there even exist such a thing as a master without the opposite of slave?
2. The control mechanisms on this planet are quite literally mind-boggling. Control of the human form, control of its consciousness (and control of the consciousness by control mechanisms in the human form) and control of its connection to its fractal nature and infinite beingness (which can never actually be severed).
I talk about some of it in my published writings, but I’m not sure I’ll ever talk about all of it. Well, “ever” is a long time, so I won’t commit to that, but I won’t talk about them now. Why? Partly, yes, it could make me a target and I am not interested in that. But also, people have to have a certain amount of wisdom cultivated or “under their belt” to be able to hear about these mechanisms and have it be constructive. Without that, it would become a catalyst for deep fear and that is never my intention. I won’t do it.
I am at that point now where I’m open to knowing much more about the control mechanisms, but I’ve been at the wisdom-cultivating game for 50 years. And….I’m extremely selective about my sources. You must be. There is a lot of misinformation out there. The misinformation needs to be sorted and ignored. Some of my sources were in my life 30+ years ago, some of them only came to my awareness 9 months ago. So some of the good info is more available now.
BUT…but…no matter the degree of challenge of control structures here on beloved Earth – and they are a deep challenge – each and every one of us is always…ALWAYS the locus of power. We all have the power to go beyond all the control mechanisms. We go beyond the control mechanisms by going deeply within.
We don’t ascend or get a higher frequency or less dense (our so-called density is our super power) or become some more spiritualized version of “master” to engage our power. All of that is part of the control mechanism. It is control ideology. It is part of the imposed narrative.
How do we access our true power?
We blend our inner shadow and light. We become aware of and discard pretty much every perceptual filter we’ve “stuck to.” We go into our heart essence. And in. And in. That is where infinite is. Not in climbing, ascending a set of false spiritual steps/frequencies or “mastering” anything. That is where infinite is not.
I am working on a post about the god matrix, also known as the hologram of the gods. It is tough for me to finish. In part because I have been a lover and devotee of the mystical god for many lifetimes. It has carried over into this lifetime. If you look at the books I own, 80% of them, at least, have some theme about god. It will take some time to exit this matrix fully. The irony is that on some level it already happened. I noticed it in this subtle, everyday intuitive flash four years ago where I saw my energy was bigger than god’s. Now I am unpacking it consciously and for good.
George Kavassilis says that once you understand that the notion of god and a creator is a narrative, a lie, created by other races to control the human you’ve cracked the code. I get it. The belief in a creator – by its very definition greater and more powerful than us – and a god (same) – births the belief in “more powerful than, better than.” Once that belief takes hold, you are owned. You are ripe for the picking. You have allowed yourself to be severed from your own true essence. All essence within each one of us is equally and infinitely powerful. Despite ALL the narratives, history, alleged proof to the contrary, “better than” is a lie.
“There is a natural law of abundance which pervades the entire universe, but it will not flow through a doorway of belief in lack and limitation.” – Paul Zaiter
I used to believe this or maybe I used to try to believe it. Now I think it is complete rubbish. Total bullshit. I cannot count the number of people I know who have alot of money AND intense fear around money; the belief in lack and limitation mentioned in the quote. It almost seems like a belief in lack and limitation is a darn good prerequisite for attracting and holding a great deal of money.
What seems truer to me is this quote from Jung: “Until you make the unconscious, conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it Fate.” And even more, this one: “One does not become enlightened by imagining futures of light, but by making the darkness visible.” But I would nix “enlightened,” and put in blended, integrated, unified.
Here’s the thing: not everyone has to do this. Blend their shadow. Make the fear known, conscious and integrated before enough or more than enough money shows up for them. The people I know who have abundant money and plenty of fear too (and I’m not talking about thieves and plunderers….don’t know any) do not have to do the hard inner work of integration before they acquire alot of money. Though I had about a 10 year reprieve from the work and hardship of the path of needing-to-integrate-before-having, I seem to be called to this path whether I like it or not. This difference – some have to do the work, some do not – caused me confusion for years.
For my purposes, a fractal is a compressed version of every life expression you’ve ever experienced in this universe. The “you” I’m referring to is your infinite soul or infinite being, whichever term you prefer. There are millions of expressions your soul has had in this universe. Maybe even billions. Not just a few. Fractals may have other meanings in other contexts, but the one I refer to is a compression of all the soul’s universal expressions in this body right now in this lifetime.
Our “fractality” is not literal in the physical sense, meaning we don’t physically display all these life expressions – that would be wild! – but inside ourselves, essentially, we embody all those life expressions. That is why there is so much density here on Earth. If you embody all your incarnational experiences in one form it is dense and kinda crowded. This density is not “dense” like being dumb and lowly, which is the pervasive meme or mind-control thought about it. This perception – that we are dense, lowly and in need of raising our frequency/vibration to be “better” -is stronger than you think. It controlled me in subtle ways for eaons until recently.
This distinction, between knowing we are fractals wholly complete and infinite in essence vs. thinking we are incomplete, children of a creator in need of saving, “higher’ guidance, and ever-elusive completeness is vitally important. It has changed my life. I think it can change yours.
As universal fractals about to graduate we will go through compression. That is how the fractal process works. Like coal becoming a diamond, except we were always diamond, we just have “played” coal.
The compression process looks different for different people, but you kinda know it when you are in it. Actually you may not know what it is, but you will know it feels sucky. If definitely sucks.
What the compression process is, is blending all your inner aspects. You are looking at every fear-infused nook and cranny within yourself. As I said in my blog post about money much of what passes for normal or even the “good life” in our world is often fear-based. Y’gotta look that gnarly stuff in the eye. But you have to do it in real life, by living your life. If it’s just something you do in your mind or energetically, it is not compression.
Once you confront the tough stuff internally you can blend it, integrate it. You…we… will move into the unknown. And the way better.
What is coming on Earth is not a better version of what the matrix tells you is the “good life” or what you have known before. It is something altogether different. During compression you know (all too well) what you have lost or left behind, but you don’t know what you’re going to. That is a big part of what makes it feel crummy.
If I say anything positive about Trump most of the people closest to me label (and castigate) me as a “Trump supporter.” What the hell does that even mean? There seems to be little understanding (any?) that our perceptions are completely locked into an artificial binary “us vs. them” filter. This, my friends, is the problem. It is mind-control. It is everywhere. Not only in politics.
For Trump to stand up last night in front of the world and say, with a certain amount of glee, that he is detaching (not sure the exact wording) from the WHO and the Paris Climate Accord took enormous courage. You are probably thinking I’m not for a clean, pristine Earth. How wrong you are. You are having some mind control if you think that. Binary. You are this or that. If you are not “this,” then you must be ‘that!”
I am neither.
These do-good organizations are not what they seem and do not do good.
So much in our world is not what it seems. Let me repeat that – most of what we think we see in our world is not what it seems. These organizations profess to do good, but their true organization happens behind the scenes and involve extra-terrestrial and inter-dimensional entities and groups that do not have humanity’s interests at heart. These groups and their Earth minions have had enormous power for a very long time. To stand in front of them and say “we leave you,” takes courage.
However, his “drill baby drill” agenda makes me want to throw him off the edge of the Earth into the sea of space. Why not be truly courageous and have the agenda of “free energy, baby, zero point energy for everyone.” THAT would take courage.
If the entire matrix with its impositions and deceptions: – AI, Bloodline, Priestly caste and God – and its attendant psychological takeovers, strongholds in our psyches – could be likened to a sheet of ice on top of a lake, what Trump is doing is poking that ice and breaking it up.
Lot of folks think the Imposers and Deceivers will go smoothly, so we should all play nice and have a spot of tea. That would be nice, but it’s not how it is. I wish it were. We humans will pull this planet and all the dimensions under their influence from their cold, dead hands. Their insistence, not mine.
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