For my purposes, a fractal is a compressed version of every life expression you’ve ever experienced in this universe. The “you” I’m referring to is your infinite soul or infinite being, whichever term you prefer. There are millions of expressions your soul has had in this universe. Maybe even billions. Not just a few. Fractals may have other meanings in other contexts, but the one I refer to is a compression of all the soul’s universal expressions in this body right now in this lifetime.
Our “fractality” is not literal in the physical sense, meaning we don’t physically display all these life expressions – that would be wild! – but inside ourselves, essentially, we embody all those life expressions. That is why there is so much density here on Earth. If you embody all your incarnational experiences in one form it is dense and kinda crowded. This density is not “dense” like being dumb and lowly, which is the pervasive meme or mind-control thought about it. This perception – that we are dense, lowly and in need of raising our frequency/vibration to be “better” -is stronger than you think. It controlled me in subtle ways for eaons until recently.
This distinction, between knowing we are fractals wholly complete and infinite in essence vs. thinking we are incomplete, children of a creator in need of saving, “higher’ guidance, and ever-elusive completeness is vitally important. It has changed my life. I think it can change yours.
As universal fractals about to graduate we will go through compression. That is how the fractal process works. Like coal becoming a diamond, except we were always diamond, we just have “played” coal.
The compression process looks different for different people, but you kinda know it when you are in it. Actually you may not know what it is, but you will know it feels sucky. If definitely sucks.
What the compression process is, is blending all your inner aspects. You are looking at every fear-infused nook and cranny within yourself. As I said in my blog post about money much of what passes for normal or even the “good life” in our world is often fear-based. Y’gotta look that gnarly stuff in the eye. But you have to do it in real life, by living your life. If it’s just something you do in your mind or energetically, it is not compression.
Once you confront the tough stuff internally you can blend it, integrate it. You…we… will move into the unknown. And the way better.
What is coming on Earth is not a better version of what the matrix tells you is the “good life” or what you have known before. It is something altogether different. During compression you know (all too well) what you have lost or left behind, but you don’t know what you’re going to. That is a big part of what makes it feel crummy.
If I say anything positive about Trump most of the people closest to me label (and castigate) me as a “Trump supporter.” What the hell does that even mean? There seems to be little understanding (any?) that our perceptions are completely locked into an artificial binary “us vs. them” filter. This, my friends, is the problem. It is mind-control. It is everywhere. Not only in politics.
For Trump to stand up last night in front of the world and say, with a certain amount of glee, that he is detaching (not sure the exact wording) from the WHO and the Paris Climate Accord took enormous courage. You are probably thinking I’m not for a clean, pristine Earth. How wrong you are. You are having some mind control if you think that. Binary. You are this or that. If you are not “this,” then you must be ‘that!”
I am neither.
These do-good organizations are not what they seem and do not do good.
So much in our world is not what it seems. Let me repeat that – most of what we think we see in our world is not what it seems. These organizations profess to do good, but their true organization happens behind the scenes and involve extra-terrestrial and inter-dimensional entities and groups that do not have humanity’s interests at heart. These groups and their Earth minions have had enormous power for a very long time. To stand in front of them and say “we leave you,” takes courage.
However, his “drill baby drill” agenda makes me want to throw him off the edge of the Earth into the sea of space. Why not be truly courageous and have the agenda of “free energy, baby, zero point energy for everyone.” THAT would take courage.
If the entire matrix with its impositions and deceptions: – AI, Bloodline, Priestly caste and God – and its attendant psychological takeovers, strongholds in our psyches – could be likened to a sheet of ice on top of a lake, what Trump is doing is poking that ice and breaking it up.
Lot of folks think the Imposers and Deceivers will go smoothly, so we should all play nice and have a spot of tea. That would be nice, but it’s not how it is. I wish it were. We humans will pull this planet and all the dimensions under their influence from their cold, dead hands. Their insistence, not mine.
A time of reckoning. What does that mean? Not sure. When I first thought about it I saw it as a confrontation, a showdown, like the gunfight at the OK Corral.
Yeah, it feels confrontational, but not in the way I thought and not in the way I expected and not in the way we are taught a showdown is. There’s fear, but no foe. Yes, there is fear, but no foe. I am so used to a foe. I almost don’t know how to function without one. I definintely don’t know how to have a reckoning without one, even an inner one. That is part of the challenge. No foe. No me, the fighter, having to boost self, blow up my self esteem, my energy and tackle the fucker.
Taking action. What is the action you need to take? You know what it is. How many layers of fearful denial cloud your knowing?
It’s the icky feelings, the sinking into remembering that cause the cloud. Something hurt. Something hurt me. I don’t even really remember all of it, but it is there. Always pulling me back. Always giving me reasons to stay safe and not, do not, let it happen again. I mean how stupid would I be to let it happen again?
As for not knowing: maybe there was another planet in this solar system at another time. Some have called the planet Tiamat. Some have called it Maldek. I think they are the same. It was destroyed. It was blown up. I do remember being on the planet as the destruction was on its way. Was it a weapon? A weaponized asteroid? Don’t know. I saw myself standing on a street corner in a Roman-esque type robe talking to a friend. I know her in this life. It was a casual chat. And hell was about to rain down.
Some trusted people I know have said that this planet’s destruction is a big if not the core trauma behind the fears many of us have. How the fuck would I know that? We thought our souls, our spiritual core, would die. We still do.
My life has been rough the last couple years. When I tell people about it – I don’t often – they usually don’t understand. “Why don’t you change it?” they ask. They don’t understand. That makes my life feel rougher.
Last weekend, I was talking to a friend about it. I said, “Sometimes the soul calls shots the ego does not like. The freedoms we normally experience aren’t there. We try, but things don’t happen, like as a way of life.”
My friend said the same thing another friend said in a similar conversation in November. “Maybe most people don’t experience that.”
It got me thinking a bit differently. First, I think some people do understand this subject, they are just not the ones crossing my path. There is a phenomena on the spiritual journey called “the dark night of the soul.” I can tell you for sure that the overwhelming majority of people do not accurately understand that process. Part of the reason for that is there is NO and I mean no societal reference point for it. When you experience it you are in the dark in more ways than one, including having no culture that understands it. Literally.
Thing is, everyone goes through it at some point as they complete their spiritual journey. Because of that, I have come to expect that people know what it is, that they have some kind of real-life reference point.
If they have experienced it maybe they regarded it “just” as a very difficult time? What I’m going through now is not the Dark Night. It has similarities, but it is not the same, though it sucks pretty much the same. The Dark Night had distinct features. The inner life I had known to that point was gone. The “light” phenomena of consciousness – the way guidance occurred; the love exchange I had with what I then called God – was gone. In a way there was an energy that did present itself, but it was dark. Compared to the energy that was no longer there, it was blind.
Maybe I understand the Dark Night process more than others, but I think everyone should understand it to some degree. Am I wrong? They don’t seem to.
I am mulling over offering some coaching sessions for people whose infrastructure way of life has shifted dramatically due to things like fires, floods, job losses/changes, cost of living, etc., and are interested in looking at the inner transformational aspect of that experience. Folks who are open to seeing their experience of radical change as good prep for the shifts that are to come on Earth and for all humanity.
Yes, this prep involves dealing with the so-called outer changes, but it is not ultimately about that. It is about the massive changes you experience within yourself that prep you. You train yourself to have a wiser relationship to the unknown. Most of us have a dysfunctional relationship to the unknown. Those who can flow better between the known and unknown will have a much easier time in the coming years.
As this blog has chronicled, I have experienced (and am experiencing) massive changes to my way of life the last few years and especially the last two+ years since we moved to the Mesa. It is a difficult but unparalleled path of inner change. “Path”. doesn’t quite feel like the right word. The experience is more like being plunged into freezing cold water repeatedly. It is jarring. It is jarring frequently. But if your soul wants you to be on the wisdom fast track and wants you align with its deeper agenda quickly, there are few better ways. You have no choice but to try to swim. Yet you don’t know how. Not in this water. Or so it seems. Therein lies the accelerated alchemy and swimming in uncharted water.
….I am stuck on this blog entry. That is because the subject is still not fully formed in my mind. Here are some terms I have so far:
Infinite way of being Decentralization Mitochondria Heart essence Ego Intellect
I have been learning about mitochondrial health from Dr. Jack Kruse. He describes himself as “decentralized.” He practices decentralized medicine. He is a huge proponent of Bitcoin.
I am also a fan of someone named Jonathan MacDonald. He is into a variety of things, including spirituality and one of his creations (co-creations) is a decentralized crypto platform called “Minima.”
The work of both these men and George Kavassilas got me thinking about life, health, money and spirituality from this particular vantage point. It is intriguing.
My bias is always toward spirituality and how to be completely free within. It is the real pearl beyond price because inner freedom, like that exemplified by Byron Katie, gives you the only real freedom worth having, the only real freedom that exists: complete, total freedom from fear and attachment. Any attachment. Katie would experience the same peaceful state of being whether she was a queen in a castle or an un-housed woman in her underwear on the street with people who used to be her friends spitting on her. I get tears in my eyes thinking about her. How do you describe this beauty? It is the only true freedom.
That being said, I am still on the path to this and have not arrived yet. If I were un-housed on the street with friends spitting on me I would feel so deeply hopeless and despondent I would want to die. Yes, I’m still on the path.
So the inner part of the decentralization, which GK would call the Heart Essence, has something to do with shifting our way of being and what one turns to within – to something decentralized. Not the ego. Not an imagined center, including every societal, conditioned, imagined identity and self-image we have. It’s so subtle. It is undramatic and beyond-radically different. I’m still trying to understand it. I’m still trying to live it.
We are fractals. Universal fractals. Fractals are not aspects or an “aspect of” anything or anyone. Fractals are not a “part of” or a child-of. We are not aspects of a Creator. We are not children of God. We are infinite beings. Nothing exists beyond our infinite nature. I will repeat: We are not children of a God….any God.
We are the entirety in compressed form.
Contemplate this. If you contemplate it, you will likely realize you regard yourself, however subtley, as a piece, aspect, child, “part-of,” “member of.” You regard yourself this way in an existential sense. If you really “get” that you are the whole, the entirety, the infinite in compressed form, it will change your life.
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