Is that true? I suspect it is. God is an entity in a matrix. The god matrix. It is not the creator of all that is; it is not even the creator of this Universe. It did not create me. It is an entity on a massive cosmo-ego trip. And through its priestly caste of the ages and by their infiltration of most cultures on earth regardless of the nature of each religion and its unique insistence on obedience and worship, it has enslaved the minds and hearts of countless humans by manipulating our desire to love.
I am mulling over offering some coaching sessions for people whose infrastructure way of life has shifted dramatically due to things like fires, floods, job losses/changes, cost of living, etc., and are interested in looking at the inner transformational aspect of that experience. Folks who are open to seeing their experience of radical change as good prep for the shifts that are to come on Earth and for all humanity.
Yes, this prep involves dealing with the so-called outer changes, but it is not ultimately about that. It is about the massive changes you experience within yourself that prep you. You train yourself to have a wiser relationship to the unknown. Most of us have a dysfunctional relationship to the unknown. Those who can flow better between the known and unknown will have a much easier time in the coming years.
As this blog has chronicled, I have experienced (and am experiencing) massive changes to my way of life the last few years and especially the last two+ years since we moved to the Mesa. It is a difficult but unparalleled path of inner change. “Path”. doesn’t quite feel like the right word. The experience is more like being plunged into freezing cold water repeatedly. It is jarring. It is jarring frequently. But if your soul wants you to be on the wisdom fast track and wants you align with its deeper agenda quickly, there are few better ways. You have no choice but to try to swim. Yet you don’t know how. Not in this water. Or so it seems. Therein lies the accelerated alchemy and swimming in uncharted water.
….I am stuck on this blog entry. That is because the subject is still not fully formed in my mind. Here are some terms I have so far:
Infinite way of being Decentralization Mitochondria Heart essence Ego Intellect
I have been learning about mitochondrial health from Dr. Jack Kruse. He describes himself as “decentralized.” He practices decentralized medicine. He is a huge proponent of Bitcoin.
I am also a fan of someone named Jonathan MacDonald. He is into a variety of things, including spirituality and one of his creations (co-creations) is a decentralized crypto platform called “Minima.”
The work of both these men and George Kavassilas got me thinking about life, health, money and spirituality from this particular vantage point. It is intriguing.
My bias is always toward spirituality and how to be completely free within. It is the real pearl beyond price because inner freedom, like that exemplified by Byron Katie, gives you the only real freedom worth having, the only real freedom that exists: complete, total freedom from fear and attachment. Any attachment. Katie would experience the same peaceful state of being whether she was a queen in a castle or an un-housed woman in her underwear on the street with people who used to be her friends spitting on her. I get tears in my eyes thinking about her. How do you describe this beauty? It is the only true freedom.
That being said, I am still on the path to this and have not arrived yet. If I were un-housed on the street with friends spitting on me I would feel so deeply hopeless and despondent I would want to die. Yes, I’m still on the path.
So the inner part of the decentralization, which GK would call the Heart Essence, has something to do with shifting our way of being and what one turns to within – to something decentralized. Not the ego. Not an imagined center, including every societal, conditioned, imagined identity and self-image we have. It’s so subtle. It is undramatic and beyond-radically different. I’m still trying to understand it. I’m still trying to live it.
We are fractals. Universal fractals. Fractals are not aspects or an “aspect of” anything or anyone. Fractals are not a “part of” or a child-of. We are not aspects of a Creator. We are not children of God. We are infinite beings. Nothing exists beyond our infinite nature. I will repeat: We are not children of a God….any God.
We are the entirety in compressed form.
Contemplate this. If you contemplate it, you will likely realize you regard yourself, however subtley, as a piece, aspect, child, “part-of,” “member of.” You regard yourself this way in an existential sense. If you really “get” that you are the whole, the entirety, the infinite in compressed form, it will change your life.
It is cold in my yurt. Got the heat back on, but it has only risen to 57 F from 52. Fingers are cold as I type. A couple fingers are swollen. Not from cold. Not sure from what. Saw my functional MD this summer and I had two underlying bacterial conditions, including chlamydia. I got it from a spider bite. Only Dr. Bill, my functional MD, would know that! Turns out some scientific dude studied spiders back in the day and cultured one of their mandibles (wtf?). He discovered chlamydia bacteria. So you don’t have to have sex with the spider. It just has to bite you.
I took kudzu for one of the infections. I think it was the chlamydia. One of the symptoms was swollen finger joints, which is what is happening again. I ordered some more kudzu. I’ll see if it helps with my finger joints. The pinky on the right hand has kind of blown up. Weird. They were feeling alot better until a couple days ago.
I was in Denver last weekend. Doing a class with Sharon, the beloved spiritual teacher. After class, during happy hour at the hotel, I was talking to Patricia. I’m not even sure exactly what I said, but expletives were flying out of my mouth. I am originally from New Jersey and have been known to sling a swear word or two. I think I was trying to articulate how disappointed and isolated I feel because almost no one seems to get what my life is about. And….that group there, my classmates – they should know better. So I think.
Truth be told, some of them might get it. They might be able to articulate an understanding of my life experience – the gist, the core of it – that would feel really satisfying to me. No one did so that weekend. Part of the problem of not only the way I currently live, but with society in general now is how isolated we are. Not only that, but our collective communication has been affected – for the poorer – from the Algo culture (Technical/Artificial Intelligence world, culture). I don’t even understand it all. I don’t want to. I just know Algo shapes communication and perception: we feel more separate and worse.
I felt icky after talking to Patricia. Even though swearing happens out of my mouth, I don’t feel good afterwards, especially if it has caught me off-guard, which this did….completely. I am sitting with the aftermath of the conversation, discerning what I need to be more conscious of. It is this: I feel isolated. It stresses me. I greatly wish people understood and appreciated what I’m doing with my life and why I’m doing it. I write this blog in hopes of helping with that. To be honest, it is the best I can do. I have almost no patience for explaining my life. I speak up, but am also quiet alot.
Too often people see it in the old way. Try to fit it into old narratives. Matrix-created narratives of meritocracy and their own unconscious ego action. So much unconscious ego trancing: “This feels pleasurable and safe. It is good. This does not. It is bad.” It is a trance folks.
I feel impatient. Everything will change on this planet and then people will be living their own profound change and transformation. They will have no choice. Some are doing that now. I know some of them. Still most people seem to be choosing comfort, the known and stagnation.
I will get back to the post about planets and planes, which is really about off-planet reality, but also about the opportunity for freedom from old perceptual filters – not yet considered old by the collective reality – that learning about the Old World facts and manipulation of our world system offers us. Freeing ourselves from binding perceptual filters is a vital step in spiritual advancement. Spiritual advancement is what this blog is about. It is what life is about.
You have within you a divine flame. A divine presence. It is not abstract, it is as real as the nose on your face. In fact it likely created the nose on your face.
Divine presence can do anything. It can have complete dominion over the physical world. Connecting with it is a spiritual practice and “dominion” – as controlling as the word might sound – is a spiritual act. Therefore keep up with your spiritual truth inquiry and seeking. It is the foundation for the greater powers of Divine Presence in your world.
The term “occult” suggests those who seek the power of the Divine without the necessary wisdom or because they are too lazy to do the spiritual work. I kinda get that though I have never been drawn to that path.
The reason I get why someone might want a shortcut is because the spiritual path can feel downright hard at times. Hopeless, lonely. And not for just a short time. But it doesn’t matter. We’re playing the long (LONG 🤔) game. Keep on. Spirit is the only true power. I have spent my entire life searching for the whole package – the spiritual truth, freedom and the dominion over the physical and energetic worlds. I keep on. You keep on. There is no other way.
Some spiritual traditions have what they call the “Via Negativa” and the “Via Positiva.” The Via Negativa and the Via Positiva refer to the paths taken to spiritual freedom. They also refer to the temperament of the spiritual aspirants on those paths as they are very different.
The Via Negative is the path of spiritual renunciation, material minimalism, and an inclination to see God better when there is less distraction from worldly things, noise, experience. The Negativa has a heavy dose of the spiritual destroyer in her. I fit into this category.
The Via Positiva, as best as I can tell since it is foreign to me, sees no conflict between worldliness – involvement in worldly, interactive contact; experiences; material things – and God. It is hard for me to fathom because so much of that reeks of ego to me. ( You must be thinking, “oh she would be fun at a party!”). I love and need a certain amount of people contact, travel and experiences in the world, but I also see that that kind of involvement can originate from fear and be a massive distraction. Life of the party. (Actually I love a good party).
I do not know if this vision of mine is even trustworthy. Does it come from spirit? Can’t be sure. What I do know is I see it constantly. I cannot look away from it.
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The Zero Point: I am looking for a definition online, but not seeing anything great. The closest definition that fits my intuition is this: “when quantum particles reach…zero…the particles then no longer contain any information about what state they were in before. Everything that may have happened to the particle before is perfectly erased.”
That definition is actually pretty cool. But rather than see the field as a bunch of particles, I see it as a field of potentiating, unlimited energy. The zero point field is a field of spiritual energy. It has zero charge, no predetermined form and it is also available for use. It was designed for human use. The quantum physicists could tell us where, if there is a where, it resides around planet Earth. It may be more accurate to say it infuses all the space in and around our planet.
It can be used to create unlimited electricity (see Nikola Tesla or the documentary “The Lost Century,” by Steven Greer), healing energy and potentials that are considered impossible by the current accepted system of reality and, further, anything you desire. The zero point is a state within you as well. When you program for a reality – intend a creation – you can take your program/intention (see it like a shape) to the zero point field for energizing into form. What you are imagining and intending is the shape and spirit or zero point energy gives that shape life. This is all something you can do with your own consciousness. There is outer technology based on this energy and it would be fun to have access to that kind of technology; it would change life as we know it on this planet. However, at this time, because of technology suppression, I suggest you work with your own consciousness. It can be a frustrating waiting game if you are hoping to use the technologies.
The Zero is not the Zero Point:
For those of us with the Negativa temperament who feel a certain rush from environmental minimalism and possess more than a dash of spiritual destroyer energy, it is sometimes helpful -perhaps more than just a little at times – to not conflate zero with zero point. What do I mean by that?
Essentially the Negativa can see absence as Presence. That can result in alot of blocking of life nutrients, including literal ones. People might call it a “holy anorexia,” but it is not that simple. Cutting out old ways of being, identifying and behaving can…can reveal deeper, previously hidden aspects of one’s “self.” There can be an increase of Presence in absence. Also, the emptying out of old ways can turn one – intentionally, unintentionally or both – to the zero point. In a sense you can empty out into the zero point. However, they are not the same. At times it is necessary to clarify that. I am going through that right now.
My life has emptied out in many ways. I am too close to the process to know exactly how or if that is benefiting me. I do know that I reached a point not that long ago where I said “no” to more of the zero. Zero car, amenities (almost zero), machines working and an abundance of upsetting outcomes. I cannot tell you how much “yes” I had in that game, I only know that now if I find myself thinking about the things that are gone or worst, the things that are chronically not working, I stop myself and say, “That is enough. I have had enough of that. It has done its job.”
Only you can know how much emptying you might need to get to a quantum field of freedom. The Positiva would say, “Why would you need emptying? There is God in everything.” I say, yes that is true, but how much are you secretly attached to everything? That is the issue. The inner, not the alleged outer, freedom is the issue and it is the only issue. I was willing to go through too much to get there. Now, I have no opinion about getting there, but I have a limit to the amount of zero I will endure.
To those of you who have kept up with all the comings and goings with my blog site, thank you! So much is in flux, including my tech and web stuff, that things like websites and blog sites seem to be there one minute and gone the next.
What is on my mind today, is the wintery-ness of the spiritual journey. It feels that way sometimes, doesn’t it? I’m going through a wintery period and it feels very challenging. It’s all for spiritual and soul freedom which has been the fundamental passion of my life. But it is a passion that kind of kills all passion.
That probably sounds very depressing, but if our core is spiritual, silent and immovable, it is a different state than passion, as desirable and delicious as passion can feel. If true Spirit calls to you then you know there is nothing….nothing you can do to resist its call. At least nothing ultimately. We usually put all sorts of fillers in to distract ourselves and slow the distress that we might feel from the tension between the powerful ego and the Spirit. As dear teacher Byron Katie says, “Love kills everything but itself.” It can feel surprising – and is not for the faint of heart- to see how much of what we think we love is infused with other non-love elements within ourselves. It is ALL and only within ourselves. Nothing needs to be manipulated in the apparent outside world. Letting those elements within ourselves that feel good, but may not be pure (not my fave word, but will use it for now) love be consumed in our genuine love of Spirit can feel like a kind of death.
If you are not called by Spirit, all of this can – and probably does – sound awful and useless. Well, it can feel awful, but it is not useless. It is, however, for the courageous. I commend those of you out there willing to let the Love of Spirit, the Divine, consume everything but Itself. From my heart I send you Love.
In our galaxy, there is a Galactic Senate. It has 300,000 members and humans of Earth are not on it. We are not on it, because we have not shown we are worthy of being in this Senate. Let me be clear, by “worthy” I mean, we have not shown we are spiritually-advanced enough to be selected. But the truth is we are spiritually-advanced enough, we just need to demonstrate it. We need to stop fighting, hating and letting lower frequencies and the “bad actors” that use them control our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. We ARE ready for this. Let’s show it.
Here is a statement some folks created this weekend to present to the Galactic Senate:
“We respectfully request representation based upon our unique experience and diversity. We, as the sovereign human, express a blueprint as spirit in form, to demonstrate love, wisdom, courage and the integrity to evolve beyond the cosmos. We are ready!”
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