Category Archives: Soul Freedom

How wintery it can feel

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To those of you who have kept up with all the comings and goings with my blog site, thank you! So much is in flux, including my tech and web stuff, that things like websites and blog sites seem to be there one minute and gone the next.

What is on my mind today, is the wintery-ness of the spiritual journey. It feels that way sometimes, doesn’t it? I’m going through a wintery period and it feels very challenging. It’s all for spiritual and soul freedom which has been the fundamental passion of my life. But it is a passion that kind of kills all passion.

That probably sounds very depressing, but if our core is spiritual, silent and immovable, it is a different state than passion, as desirable and delicious as passion can feel. If true Spirit calls to you then you know there is nothing….nothing you can do to resist its call. At least nothing ultimately. We usually put all sorts of fillers in to distract ourselves and slow the distress that we might feel from the tension between the powerful ego and the Spirit. As dear teacher Byron Katie says, “Love kills everything but itself.” It can feel surprising – and is not for the faint of heart- to see how much of what we think we love is infused with other non-love elements within ourselves. It is ALL and only within ourselves. Nothing needs to be manipulated in the apparent outside world. Letting those elements within ourselves that feel good, but may not be pure (not my fave word, but will use it for now) love be consumed in our genuine love of Spirit can feel like a kind of death.

If you are not called by Spirit, all of this can – and probably does – sound awful and useless. Well, it can feel awful, but it is not useless. It is, however, for the courageous. I commend those of you out there willing to let the Love of Spirit, the Divine, consume everything but Itself. From my heart I send you Love.

What will our hero do now?

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I have not written much the last few months because I haven’t had much to say. There is so much shifting going on – for all of us, no? – that I feel like anything I write pertains to something in the past and I do not yet know what to say about the reality to come.

Here on the Mesa, in the Alchemical Bootcamp, the challenges just keep on coming! Too many to mention, but they seem to permeate many aspects of life infrastructure from food to toilet-ing to climate control. It is bloody cold in this part of the US and we did not weather the winter here last year- we were stuffed in the RV in a couple different places in New Mexico- so we do not know if our infrastructure here on the Mesa is up to the task.

Our RV is not very viable at the moment, b/c unexpected issues with the “baby” vehicle, our truck, sucked up all the resources we hoped to use on the RV. Both the RV and the truck are young machines and my hope was that their “youth” would provide some buffer against repair expenses and inconvenience. Not to be.

So I stare down the prospect of intense cold without the knowledge of how I will survive it. I feel like a Marvel character in this life: how will our hero survive this?

Most people, including me alot of the time, think the real struggle is between me and the elements, between me and the unknown. To be fair, I do feel struggle, so that part feels real, but the struggle is with fear and fearful states of ego/mind. All of this – all of what I am going through- is about lessening the impact of fear on my sense of self, decisions and life. If you look closely, you might see fear at the root of just about every decision and ideation you experience. It might be masked by “socially acceptable,” but underneath it all, it is likely fear. Even if it seems 8 billion other humans accept the fear as real, it does not make it so. Only you decide what you will accept.

Humanity’s Request

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In our galaxy, there is a Galactic Senate. It has 300,000 members and humans of Earth are not on it.
We are not on it, because we have not shown we are worthy of being in this Senate. Let me be clear, by “worthy” I mean, we have not shown we are spiritually-advanced enough to be selected.
But the truth is we are spiritually-advanced enough, we just need to demonstrate it. We need to stop fighting, hating and letting lower frequencies and the “bad actors” that use them control our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. We ARE ready for this. Let’s show it.

Here is a statement some folks created this weekend to present to the Galactic Senate:

“We respectfully request representation based upon our unique experience and diversity.
We, as the sovereign human, express a blueprint as spirit in form, to demonstrate love, wisdom, courage and the integrity to evolve beyond the cosmos. We are ready!”

Make is so, people. Make it so.

You ARE It (more…)

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She must have said it a thousand times.
I’ve tuned into her class almost every week since May of 2020, sometimes three times a week, but I never got it the way I did last week: “Any time you feel stressed, depressed or feel unease of any kind, it is because of what you are thinking and believing. It is only because of that.”

Your thoughts. My thoughts. The way to freedom is within us. We’ve got the power.

Her suggestion: write the thoughts down on paper (or the app) and in a state of silent inquiry, question them.

I can hear the audience pushback now:

  • But bad things happen
  • He/she is the cause of my stress/ heartbreak/anger
  • If I don’t like someone, it’s clearly about them
  • I can’t control my thoughts
  • it’s YOU causing me stress!

I get it. Experientially, I can relate to all the objections. But I also know that when a stressful thought disappears into the silence of the One, the heart emerges from the cloud cover and beams. It soaks my world in sweet kindness. It feels realer than real.

In my lived experience, I vacillate. Intuitively? I know unconditional inner freedom is real. Getting to that unperturbable place as a state of being? Well, that is the game here. That is the school most of us are in.

A Reasonable Planet

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Earth is not a reasonable planet. The teacher at the front of the class said that recently. She knows alot. She was being intentionally delicate.

A shit show. That’s how the woman sitting next to me described it. I agree with her, but for the sake of this post I will be delicate.

We see people who have what they need and people who don’t. We probably think, “That’s just how it is. It is the nature of reality. Some people have what they need and some people don’t.” That’s how I used to think about it.

Here’s how I think about it now: “If you are born on this planet you have the right to a comfortable life. Period. No matter who you are, if you were born here, this planet is, de facto, your home. You have a right to be at home & comfortable in/on your home. Full stop.”

Until every human on this planet enjoys a comfortable physical life as a matter of fact, Earth will remain an unreasonable place. It is a matter of principle and principles are complete unto themselves, they do not have or require exceptions.

Therefore when that principle is accepted and activated, every human WILL have a comfortable life here on Earth and Earth will start to become a reasonable planet.

This may seem impossible, but that is what we were taught to believe, just like we were taught to believe that it is acceptable and reasonable that some people live in horrendous physical circumstances. When it is time, in our case it is a matter of timing, when it is time for this principle to be accepted and implemented, the changes and upgrades will be rapid.

How joyous will it be when that starts?

Life is But A Dream

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You are It.

My teacher Patrick O’Hara used to say that. It probably means a hundred different things to a hundred different people. I guess most would hear it in an egoic sense, like you are the “It” gal or guy or you are “the bomb,” better than all the rest.

That is not what Patrick meant. Patrick meant you are the hub of your reality. You are the creator. If you see a problem, you are the solution. If you don’t like the dream you’re experiencing, reprogram it. You are the dreamer, it is your dream.
You are also beyond the dream. You are that. You are beyond any dream and any sense of ego “I, me or mine.”

Once you start to really get that, it shakes the apparent solidity of your life. It’s not always fun. In fact, it’s often not fun. But here lies the rub: once you’re on to it, you can’t turn back. Once you get a taste of this knowledge you can’t untaste it. It is the beginning of waking up, but that can take time.
During that time you’ve got of a kind of unjelled reality: you are still immersed in the dream, but you know it’s just a dream, but you’re wanting it to be solid or real whatever it seemed to be in the past or ….the absolute freedom you know lives beyond dream, but you’re not there either. It can really take the fun out of things.

I find myself sentimental alot lately. I realize I am remembering, savoring, crying over, longing for, essentially, storylines. I know. It’s a lot to take in if you really consider it, but the point is once you’re on to the fact that this is all really a dream, you can’t unknow it and – eventually- that knowing takes you to full awakeness, the immovable Divine, which you are. That is what Patrick meant: you are It.

The Breakup

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Y’know how in a relationship you have all this interest and belief in the other person and maybe you’re even madly in love with them.
But if any of those things shift, especially if you have no interest or belief in them, then the relationship falls apart?

This is a good analogy for what I am experiencing with the current reality. And truth is, I’ve been experiencing major disaffection for years.

But it’s like a big breakup. I see friends, some of whom know….know….there’s more than the muggle 3D (or allegedly now 4D- seems awfully similar) reality, but they still want something from the 3/4D experience. They still want some experience from it, so they live in it with harmony.
I guess a small part of that is still true for me or I would no longer be in this matrix, though what I’m painfully aware of most of the time is that I want it to shift. Out of existence.
So I’m in it, by a thread, waiting for my real love to arrive. Then I want to welcome that beloved in and tell you how – it’s yours too – it’s better than the deadbeat we had to break up with.
You’re probably not going to see that at first, but eventually you will. Then you’ll be like ” what was I thinking?” And I’ll say to you, “You were brainwashed to think that reality was THE shit and the only game in town. Now you know alot more and you can make different (better) choices.”

5D Physics are Different

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Sometimes I hear that it will take a long time for an ascended reality to unfold in practical, physical structures on our planet. That is understandable given the slow nature of the kind of 3/4 D we have lived in (for ages) and are living in, but 5D will be different. It will have different physics. Matter will appear quickly and move in the same way. Gravity? I don’t know the details, but I know we will master it in short order. This could happen sooner than most of us think.