My teacher Patrick O’Hara used to say that. It probably means a hundred different things to a hundred different people. I guess most would hear it in an egoic sense, like you are the “It” gal or guy or you are “the bomb,” better than all the rest.
That is not what Patrick meant. Patrick meant you are the hub of your reality. You are the creator. If you see a problem, you are the solution. If you don’t like the dream you’re experiencing, reprogram it. You are the dreamer, it is your dream. You are also beyond the dream. You are that. You are beyond any dream and any sense of ego “I, me or mine.”
Once you start to really get that, it shakes the apparent solidity of your life. It’s not always fun. In fact, it’s often not fun. But here lies the rub: once you’re on to it, you can’t turn back. Once you get a taste of this knowledge you can’t untaste it. It is the beginning of waking up, but that can take time. During that time you’ve got of a kind of unjelled reality: you are still immersed in the dream, but you know it’s just a dream, but you’re wanting it to be solid or real whatever it seemed to be in the past or ….the absolute freedom you know lives beyond dream, but you’re not there either. It can really take the fun out of things.
I find myself sentimental alot lately. I realize I am remembering, savoring, crying over, longing for, essentially, storylines. I know. It’s a lot to take in if you really consider it, but the point is once you’re on to the fact that this is all really a dream, you can’t unknow it and – eventually- that knowing takes you to full awakeness, the immovable Divine, which you are. That is what Patrick meant: you are It.
I came here for the Good Emergency. This is what I call the scenario where the Earth shift is not only happening, but it is obvious. The shift is happening now, but the real nature of it is not obvious, visible and known by all.
Emergencies are almost always bad. They involve an accident, injury, some sort of catastrophe. But what if we extract that part of it and look at some of the other dynamics that pop out in an emergency. What if we imagine a Good Emergency?
If we exclude the painful aspect, what are some of the hallmarks of an emergency ?
1. Everyone who is involved knows it is happening. 2. The nature of time changes: we don’t feel like we have a lot of it & we don’t think much about it because we are too busy just acting. 3. We just act. Whatever thoughts we have are utilitarian, we do not waste time on excess thought. We do not analyze unduly. 4. We are completely immersed. We are not living life from an armchair, literally or figuratively. 5. Our resistances disappear. 6. What (and often “who”) we think we need changes radically. 7. We don’t judge others and stand apart. We act together.
Right now in our collective reality- I speak from inside the US, though the shift is occurring on the whole planet- there is enough of a fabric of familiarity (and comfort) that people are still standing back expecting the old reality to perform for them, to come back the way it used to be.
Personal & collective materialism, “looksism” (judging people by how they look physically), petty judging and infighting, fear, violence, labeling and standing apart from others is rampant.
We are a planet that has been colonized by off-planet cultures and most humans are still acting like “subjects” of their colonizers. They are seeing some of the effects of colonization- like racism – as the cause. Once racism was brought here it became its own cause, for sure, but it did not originate here. It is important to know this because it is important, vitally important, that the human race start acting like who they really are and not like colonial subjects.
Your gift as a human is that you create your reality from within yourself. No matter how much it looks like you don’t or how difficult it may be to accept because of what you have experienced, it is still the fact. It is cosmic law. This power is being forced into our awareness and into practical existence by the intense squeeze in our world right now. We are being pushed to the brink of existence – food, fuel, water all being messed with. The purpose of it is to shift the age-old habitual focus we put outside ourselves to inside ourselves and discover (rediscover) our limitless ability to create in the physical world.
We are divine spirit living in flesh. We are spirit first and always. We have souls and they belong to each one of us (this is a bigger deal than you might think). We are sovereign through and through. Nobody gives us that and no one can take it away.
I know it doesn’t seem that way, but that’s the puzzle here on Earth and it must be solved. Humans must know who they really are and that they are “that” in equal measure. Each human has the divine spark and no one can be more “Divine” than another “Divine” being. (Yeah, even with those fabulous jeans and shoes y’got on and they ARE divine!)
At some point soon, we are all going to get that a shift is happening. We won’t think or debate about it, it will be “game on.” We will work together. We will adjust (radically) what we think we need. We will melt stand-apart differentness and resistance.
If this shift is analagous to your first time flying in a plane (hard to imagine, but go ahead, imagine), we must stop standing outside pondering what the plane is, whether it is safe to get in. The Good Emergency will do that. We will board the plane. Our hearts and minds finally open like flowers for we must master flight. And our pilots? Many will be the “lambs” – those kinda kooky, maybe quiet people we might have thought didn’t know a whole lot, had weird ideas and not much value. We will rethink that, in a nanosecond, because we will be in the Good Emergency and they will know how to get us through. It will be as obvious as the light of day.
We are told we have 2-stranded DNA and that’s how it is, was and always will be. That’s a lie.
The human blueprint was fashioned with (likely) a minimum 12-strand DNA template. Our DNA is the interface between cosmic energy and our physical expression. Though we were originally designed for 12-stranded DNA (at least), we are definitely not “12-Strand Ready” at the moment. For now, it is a worthy contemplation. It gives you a vision for our real potential. (Imagine the exponential power of that interface). It signals the greatness for which you were designed.
If we could materialize 12-strands in our current bodies/realities, we’d blow up into cosmic dust from the shock of all that energy. So even though in general I think humans need to step up the pace of their awakening, on the DNA front, I say take it one step at a time. Get into your 3-Strand DNA groove, which is here now.
We are told we have similar or even the same DNA. That’s a lie. At least it’s a lie for some of us. Our DNA is hand-chosen and utterly unique.
I heard from a trusted source that the Golden Age of Earth (and Humanity) was supposed to start in 1899. That was almost 125 years ago. Why didn’t it?
That is a long story and alot of it is still hidden. I disclose some of what I know, there is alot I don’t know, from time to time on this blog. My only purpose in sharing this info – ONLY – is to inform anyone reading this blog that we are not the manipulated human or planet we have been led to believe. We ARE vast and unlimited. We are that. We are literally built for spiritually vast and unlimited. In form. In the very form and life you inhabit right here, right now.
The skill used by those forces who have sought to enslave humanity are considerable in terms of trickery. They have mislead us in form (DNA), in thought and even in soul. The reality we think is real is mostly not. The beliefs we hold and the physical reality we see and live in, are mostly a sleight of hand.
Because of that trickery and our relative naivite (or innocence), the unfolding of the next Golden Age was kept hidden from us. Hidden in plain sight.
No matter. After you know (enough of) the truth about the trickery, it isn’t impressive in any true sense. If you were really good at something and you used that skill to manipulate living beings and cause them suffering, would that be impressive? You would be skilled, but not impressive. Misguided and pathetic perhaps. So don’t get lost in the details of how humanity has been hoodwinked. These details aren’t worth any more of your time than what you need to know to break the spell. That’s the key: breaking the spell.
Breaking the spell. Hearing that all the good stuff was supposed to start unfolding over 100 years ago helps me break more of the spell. There are old, ingrained thoughtforms about spiritual realities being difficult to actualize, only for adepts and masters, needing to be kept secret, requiring pain and suffering and more. These are spells. Maybe they were facts in the past, but we’re in a new game now, so believing them will only create hindrances. Don’t fall for them. Bringing forth a highly spiritually advanced world will not take a long time and requires no pain and suffering. It was supposed to happen over a hundred years ago. Time is up. Time is here. Finally!
Alchemy is inner transmutation. The experience of it is (constant) transformation, but ultimately it takes one beyond form. So not transFORMation per se (one form to another), but transmutation (form to no-form). But we’re not there yet. I’m not there yet. I mostly understand that intuitively.
The focus of the “alchemical bootcamp” life I am living seems to be the outer reality – and make no mistake about it, my outer life pulls my attention constantly – but the nexus of transformation and transmutation is inner. The real game is the inner one. It is that way for everyone. However, since I have chosen to be in the physical world in the current density (4th D trying to “land?”) interacting with the physical is vital. I can easily overlook or try to overlook this fact.
I think some of us lean toward one extreme or the other. We focus too much on the perceived outer and neglect the inner reality – that has not been my nature – or we focus almost exclusively on the inner and do not have much regard for the outer. The latter is my tendency. But the soul will use physical reality to get your attention if that is what is necessary. We can probably all relate to that. It is not a punishment, though it may feel that way, it is a form of communication. And, often, a call to action. Though – and here’s where it gets tricky – ultimately the action is inner. Inner primary (always). Physical reality necessary.
The constant new challenges of my life in the mundane – and baby, they ARE mundane – are the soul’s modus operandi to ascension. A blip, a solution, peace. Next blip, solution, peace. It does have a kind of rhythm, doesn’t it? It’s a kind of spiritual grind taking one out of all grinds (or most of them, depending on where your soul chooses to land).
It seems paradoxical. The way to soul freedom can be through finding a toilet option, keeping the body warm enough to live, getting food. There must be some poetry there, though it will probably feel more poetic in the next phase. Not alot of poetry now.
People say, “You never get more than you can handle.” Or “God never gives you more than you can handle.” Really? Nice story, but total bullshit. What does it even mean?
That you won’t die from a difficult situation? Is that the marker? That you won’t lose your mind, tear off your clothes, walk into traffic, have to be institutionalized? Is that the marker?
Surely those are things I do not desire, but in my experience the soul throws you more shit than you can handle all the time. How else do you grow?
I think what people mean when they say that to someone going through a difficult time is, “This situation feels bigger than your usual ways of handling life and your usual sense of self, but you really do have it in you to handle it, even though it doesn’t feel like it now.” That’s nice. And maybe it’s true. But if you’re in this life to grow beyond the known, you’re going to have times when you get more than you can handle. Count on it.
During most of the 1990’s, I was going through what I surmise was alot of intense spiritual transformation all at once. Even now, I can only guess at what it was or what to name some of it. We’re not a spiritually-literate culture, so I couldn’t just look it up (no Google) and say, “Oh, yeah, that’s what this is.” Even if I could, there was nothing I could do about it. Spiritual transformations are triggered by the soul. You just have to cope. And, at times, that is no small task.
One of the processes I was likely experiencing during that time was the Dark Night, more commonly known as the Dark Night of the Soul. I’m not sure why it is called that since the soul seemed just fine, thank you. But the rest of the human? That’s another story.
Sometimes I’d hear accounts of the Dark Night from others, but the reports I heard were superficial and inaccurate. That is not to say those people weren’t actually going through a Dark Night. Maybe they were and they didn’t articulate it well. More often than not, though, I suspect they were not actually going through the Dark Night.
There’s not much I can say about it because, well, it is the Dark Night after all. Ok, there’s a little I can say about it. First, it was not short. I cannot tell you how long it was, but in linear time, it was long.
Possibly the hardest part was the loss of my connection to God as I had known it and relied on it. For years prior, I had pleaded with great sincerity to have God, Spirit, bring on intense spiritual transformation. Not because I’m a masochist, but because I longed for an inner freedom I knew was possible. I didn’t have to conjure or dramatize that desire, it was straight from the heart.
Then I got my wish. The intense transformation part (I’m still waiting for the complete soul freedom part). Also, like I said, there were other things going on spiritually too, some of which made my physical, mental and spiritual bodies feel like they were in a vise. That too was not short. But going back to the Dark Night (DN), in the DN, the lights go out. Your inner world of spiritual phenomena disappears.
Maybe you have a sense of the Divine, of God. Some sort of connection you rely on, that makes you feel good, safe and to which you turn when things are troubling. A childlike inner connection in which a sweet story about God taking care of you and never giving you more than you can handle would make sense.
In the Dark Night, that disappears. You can beg and plead and cry – and I did – and it changes nothing. It is a process of becoming a spiritual adult. I suppose, spiritually-speaking, we’re never really alone in this life, but in the DN the ways you would know and feel that, disappear. Those “ways” are what I’m calling the lights, the knowable phenomena. They disappear and you must see in the Dark. Your ego freaks out night and day (well it does that anyway, but you can imagine…). It has none of its favorite toys to play with, including Comfort-God. They gone.
The world is one big “No.” Just about everything in your world is empty. It’s not quite as nihilistic as it sounds. In fact it is not nihilism at all, what it is, is spiritual fire. Nihilism is still an ego/intellect construct. The Dark Night is a burn. It’s the soul burning down your sense of self and your childlike relationship to Spirit. To the ground and beyond.
So some dopey saying like, “Oh God will never give you more than you can handle” is ridiculous. You come to see alot of things in this world are ridiculous.
So what to do? All you can do is distract. I can’t speak for others who maybe want to sit in meditation practice and bring mindfulness to the process – although I did a fair bit of mindfulness meditation during that time, but I didn’t push it – but it’s not the nature of the Dark Night that you work harder at it. That fucker knows precisely what to do and does not need a single thing from you to do it.
I was living in Canada at the time and for awhile had no legal working papers – don’t ask me what I could have done for a job anyway, though I did eventually get one. During those times, I would take the Oak St bus in Vancouver down to the Starbucks. Starbucks was new to me in 1992 (it was still more about actual coffee than theme-park style sugar-bomb drinks) and it was without a doubt my Coffee Dream come true.
I would go to the Oak St Starbucks and get a cappuccino and a gorgeous chocolate-dipped peanut butter cookie. At the time, Starbucks still sold really nice confections, locally-sourced, not the mass-produced garbage they sell now.
The cookie was almost as big as my hand. I would slowly savor each smooth, sweet, velvet chocolatey, crunchy peanut-buttery bite as I sipped my superb strong-roast cappuccino and for a short time, my world would be easy.
While there are many…many.. spiritual tools and insights I have to share with people, some of the dearest and most profound – the ones that kept me sane, literally – are humble, simple, everyday things that sweetened my day and were not esoteric in the least.
Stories about how easy God is on us humans were useless and silly during the Dark Night. It’s not supposed to be always be easy and you’re not supposed to be a spiritual child forever. But a good cappuccino, a nice table at which to sit, a friendly barista and a beautiful handmade chocolate-dipped peanut butter cookie can give you a moment of desperately-needed sweetness in the midst of fire.
I read an article about Kris Kristofferson the other day. He is a singer, songwriter and actor who started in the 1960’s. The article was written in 2016 when Kristofferson was poised to turn 80 yrs old. It described how a Lyme disease diagnosis (and subsequent treatment) revived some of his memory, most of which had been lost.
What struck me in the article was how in-demand and busy Kris Kristofferson was (and presumably still is). The year the article was written he had performed two tours with Willie Nelson; collaborated on an album in Canada; starred in a new Western and was on the verge of releasing his own new album. What jumped out as I read his story is this: What creates? What creates our life?
His story makes it obvious.
Most people would say, “It’s the strength of his career (my husband said this) or country artists can have appeal for donkey’s years or it is because he’s a legend.” But how many “legends” – whatever their art form, would love to be in-demand at 80, but aren’t? At all.
It is the soul that creates.
We say the intellect and cognition are “musts” to create a career or even the circumstances of life. We believe a healthy body is a requirement.
Yet here’s a man, Kristofferson, who still has bad memory days, sometimes cannot remember if he went to the studio that morning whose career (and life) are in full-tilt. A good memory – or even a memory at all – are not mandatory for a thriving career.
It is the soul that creates. It is the Conductor. It does not need a certain type of body to do it. It does not need anything.
Today in the car I was listening to an audio when the presenter said, “And maybe you should consider taking a vow of silence about your spiritual practices.” NO!!! I shouted. To myself. In the car.
I have taken too many vows of silence in other lifetimes. The vow of silence is so ingrained, it feels like a part of my DNA. That said, it is a beloved…most beloved, part.
If you asked me my thoughts about cats or the overdevelopment of land, I would blab your ears off. However, apart from a few subjects that elicit a rant, I prefer silence.
I struggle with this. I struggle with it a lot. It is challenging for me to speak publicly about what matters to me and spiritual subjects, spiritual practices matter. But this is the lifetime where it is my role to speak about them. Loud and proud.
I recently read Michael Singer’s book The Surrender Experiment. I admire his intense commitment to discover the nature of spiritual reality and not live within the dictates of his ego brain (chatter). His willingness to say “yes” to whatever appeared in his physical reality is astonishing.
If something showed up in his life, he trusted it was sent by “life” and therefore worthy of his “yes.” If his ego chattered about it (or anything), he would ignore it.
While I do agree it is useful or even necessary to say “yes” to more in life, I do not agree that everything that shows up in life deserves a “yes.” If someone just up and started living on my land – which happened to him – they would encounter the most decisive “no” you can imagine. However, as artists (of all kinds) how do we use his technique of ignoring ego/brain chatter?
First, we must identify what this “voice” is. This is your first task. You do this by observing, by listening to what is going on in your head. If it helps to take a few minutes (o.k., maybe one minute) to write down every thought in your mind, do that.
Also, sensations invariably accompany thoughts, so watch what feelings are coming up. Once you get the hang of it, see if you can trace the feelings to the thoughts. Thoughts are very (very) fast, so you might need to work on this a bit.
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