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One More Time For the Cheap Seats: The Advantage of the No-Escape Life

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The advantage (that feels like a total disadvantage) of the no-escape life is, well, if you feel imprisoned or stuck, you cannot rely on behaviors or even thought-constructs you may have used in the past to look away from certain beliefs and feelings you hold. At least not in the same way. I don’t know about you, but this doesn’t feel good to me.

But it’s not always about feeling good.

This fact will bring up a host of reactions. You will face them because you cannot escape the situation. Not only will you look at the reactions you are experiencing, but it will serve you to look at how you are perceiving the situation itself.

For me the issue of money, earning, worth and creating have been sticky ones. Here in my life of little distraction (I still try!) are some of the underlying issues I’ve noticed feel constricting on these issues:

  1. Feeling like a slave.
    A slave to the good opinion of others. (huge)
    A slave to:
    – work trends
    – what is considered good business
    – what is considered real
    – what is considered worthy, authoritative
    – what has “real” substance
    – what is considered crazy or sane
    – who deserves to be paid well and who doesn’t
    – what I have to do or not do to be paid well

    The list goes on with that one.

Some of the others are: navigating different-ness; sensitivity; self-worth; the right to be; the right to speak; fear of visibility. That is what I’ve noticed just on that one subject.

These issues are both cultural (in the largest sense) and personal. Or they seem personal. Part of the alchemy process is looking at the sense of how personal the “issues” feel. That is an important part of blending them back into center, zero point and moving beyond.

Your job, should you choose to accept it ;^) – is to become aware of both aspects: the larger cultural one, by which I mean the imposition by other cultures into our thought, spiritual and physical realm and the personal.
The cultural impositions play a huge role. Part of this control system has resulted in humanity as a collective, not knowing or acknowledging there are other cultures who live off-planet and interdimensionally. Nor do we understand the profound role they have played and continue to play in our lives and experience of reality. So much easier to control a species when part of how you do it is deny your very existence. It is hard to believe something is influencing you that doesn’t exist.

You might think this is crazy talk that has nothing to do with you. You’re wrong.

The control system encompasses almost everything about reality except your heart-soul essence or your is-ness, however you term it. The no-escape life gives you the opportunity to become aware of these influences more quickly and to see what part of this mix you feel most identified with, as in: triggered; attached to; repulsed by; intensely wanting of; defining your self-worth by or even what you value. It is the is-ness, the “immediacy” within to which you bring all the attachments of concept, memory, identity.
(It is not god. If you are bringing this inner material to god, you are not exiting the matrix. You are looping back into the control/containment sphere.)

The no-escape life, especially if it is lived in a remote area like mine, gives you the quietude and lack of distraction (arghh) to see this inner material more clearly. This is truly the first step to dissolving it. It gives you an accelerated opportunity to blend the positive & negative, dissolve it and move more intensely inward to the unified field. That is true freedom. This is why it is an advantage. This is the path to completing your soul’s journey in this universe. It is the reason you are here.

Wealthy, Shiny People

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“There is a natural law of abundance which pervades the entire universe, but it will not flow through a doorway of belief in lack and limitation.” – Paul Zaiter

I used to believe this or maybe I used to try to believe it. Now I think it is complete rubbish. Total bullshit. I cannot count the number of people I know who have alot of money AND intense fear around money; the belief in lack and limitation mentioned in the quote. It almost seems like a belief in lack and limitation is a darn good prerequisite for attracting and holding a great deal of money.

What seems truer to me is this quote from Jung: “Until you make the unconscious, conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it Fate.”
And even more, this one: “One does not become enlightened by imagining futures of light, but by making the darkness visible.” But I would nix “enlightened,” and put in blended, integrated, unified.

Here’s the thing: not everyone has to do this. Blend their shadow. Make the fear known, conscious and integrated before enough or more than enough money shows up for them. The people I know who have abundant money and plenty of fear too (and I’m not talking about thieves and plunderers….don’t know any) do not have to do the hard inner work of integration before they acquire alot of money.
Though I had about a 10 year reprieve from the work and hardship of the path of needing-to-integrate-before-having, I seem to be called to this path whether I like it or not. This difference – some have to do the work, some do not – caused me confusion for years.

I seem so slow

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There is no Shangri-la. Well, to be honest, I think there is, but it is not our destination as universal fractals. Our destination is not a destination as we understand it. It is within each of us and we are already there. It is not a swoony place like Shangri-la. Because of that it can be easy to miss. It is subtle and, like Dorothy discovered at that end of “The Wizard of Oz,” we are already home. We always have been.

Our minds have been deeply programmed to believe in hierarchies and ideologies, like Shangri-la. Bigger, better, out there, up there, reach & strive for, you’re not it – something else is. Hollywood has played a big part in the programming. We are always looking for bigger, better, out there, sexy, candy.

Years ago I was a participant in an online money mindset group coached by a 28 yr old woman named Laura. It was a humbling experience to be Laura’s student. I was in my 50’s at the time. It took me a minute to alter my mindset about age and wisdom (ha). Laura coached on shifting & releasing limiting inner thought-programs about money and having that shift materialize in the outer world. She understood something about the nature of money that I desperately wanted to understand, but could not quite grasp. The nature of money seemed so set in stone to me.

I felt like young Helen Keller in the movie, “The Miracle Worker,” I saw as a child. As many know, Helen Keller was deaf and blind. In the film, Helen’s teacher, Annie, tries to teach Helen sign language. She furiously makes signs into Helen’s hands hoping she will connect the strange hand movements to the real-world objects they represent, like water. Helen just doesn’t get it. Until… one day she does. By some grace she makes the electric connection that the weird hand movements are a language that Helen finally speaks.

When Coach Laura used to speak about her money insights I felt like Helen before she understood signing. It was just beyond my grasp. Lately, though, I’m starting to get it. It is dawning. It has been many years. I feel slow! It’s about life being a dream and choosing which thoughts, feelings and accompanying sensations we entertain. But first, we must confront the painful beliefs we think are real. As that emptying occurs, there is a freedom to choose. We can choose better stories about money or anything else.

This might sound like positive thinking or affirmations, but it is not. It is about emptying out the life-illusion and embracing the charged “bits” inside ourselves enough to see that this is a game and we are not bound by any memory, history, ideology or identity. Positive thinking can be a big defense mechanism. You have to know yourself well enough to discern how you are using it.

Up until the time we start to experience more choice, we live in ideologies, identities, memories and believe them, often wholeheartedly. Not a problem. If you believe something is real how can you also not believe it is real? It is an evolutionary process.

Two other wise women I work with know that our Universe is benevolent. It’s not a belief for them, it is something they know. I feel slow here too, but am starting to trust it. I still have my moments when I’m pretty dang sure the universe is out to get me, but there is more space around that lately too.

If it is true that the universe is friendly by nature, then I am free to accept alternative interpretations about life and life events. There have been alot of so-called negative life events the past few years, but that too is a point of view.

What it’s actually about

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This applies to more than money, but let’s focus on money. It has taken me ages to grasp that the behavior most people have around money stems from fear. The fear can have certain flavors – insecurity, greed, worry, compulsion, anger, stinginess – but I am discovering that the core driver of all these states is fear.

There are a million, billion justifications for this fear. I get it. I get how scary this subject feels. But none of the justifications are real. If you still your mind and question just one of the many beliefs you have about money, anchored in a (very) specific situation in your life, you will find that the issue is fear, not the money.

We think, “No! It is true. Look how much money I lost. Look how much other people have. Look how much I don’t have. What if I lose it all like ______? What if I end up on the streets?!!”
Yup. The ego is a trickster. On the issue of money, it will give you very real-seeming, terrifying scenarios. It will give you them in your mind’s eye over and over and over. Then you’ll hear more of the same on media. Then your spouse will echo them. Then your community. It all seems so real.

I grew up in what I describe as a Fear-Around-Money bootcamp. My home, my community. The conditioning was so intense. It seemed like everyone around me voiced the same beliefs and acted out the same behaviors, more or less. All were saturated with fear. Again, to one degree or another. My family was particularly fearful. Still, it can seem complicated because fear is what the society calls “common sense.”

It is still a fact in this world – for however long – that money or something of value to the buyer is what gets you necessities. Even if you live in the wilderness, as I do, unless you have free year-round food, water and heat, you still would need to be in perfect health your whole life and have no interests in anything that cost money to live something close to an effective money-free life. I could talk for hours about my thoughts on that subject, but the point for now is what is the consciousness you have towards money?

It is easy, easy, easy, easy to fool yourself. You have to have great courage and a willingness to face some icky, jagged, vulnerable-feeling states of mind and emotion without projecting them (onto other people, onto money, onto society) to uncover how you really regard it. You will face your true beliefs about what powers your life (hint: it is not God). You will question the nature of this Universe.

The Isolation (& Assorted)

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It is cold in my yurt. Got the heat back on, but it has only risen to 57 F from 52. Fingers are cold as I type.
A couple fingers are swollen. Not from cold. Not sure from what. Saw my functional MD this summer and I had two underlying bacterial conditions, including chlamydia. I got it from a spider bite. Only Dr. Bill, my functional MD, would know that! Turns out some scientific dude studied spiders back in the day and cultured one of their mandibles (wtf?). He discovered chlamydia bacteria. So you don’t have to have sex with the spider. It just has to bite you.

I took kudzu for one of the infections. I think it was the chlamydia. One of the symptoms was swollen finger joints, which is what is happening again. I ordered some more kudzu. I’ll see if it helps with my finger joints. The pinky on the right hand has kind of blown up. Weird. They were feeling alot better until a couple days ago.

I was in Denver last weekend. Doing a class with Sharon, the beloved spiritual teacher. After class, during happy hour at the hotel, I was talking to Patricia. I’m not even sure exactly what I said, but expletives were flying out of my mouth. I am originally from New Jersey and have been known to sling a swear word or two. I think I was trying to articulate how disappointed and isolated I feel because almost no one seems to get what my life is about. And….that group there, my classmates – they should know better. So I think.

Truth be told, some of them might get it. They might be able to articulate an understanding of my life experience – the gist, the core of it – that would feel really satisfying to me. No one did so that weekend. Part of the problem of not only the way I currently live, but with society in general now is how isolated we are. Not only that, but our collective communication has been affected – for the poorer – from the Algo culture (Technical/Artificial Intelligence world, culture). I don’t even understand it all. I don’t want to. I just know Algo shapes communication and perception: we feel more separate and worse.

I felt icky after talking to Patricia. Even though swearing happens out of my mouth, I don’t feel good afterwards, especially if it has caught me off-guard, which this did….completely. I am sitting with the aftermath of the conversation, discerning what I need to be more conscious of. It is this: I feel isolated. It stresses me. I greatly wish people understood and appreciated what I’m doing with my life and why I’m doing it. I write this blog in hopes of helping with that. To be honest, it is the best I can do. I have almost no patience for explaining my life. I speak up, but am also quiet alot.

Too often people see it in the old way. Try to fit it into old narratives. Matrix-created narratives of meritocracy and their own unconscious ego action. So much unconscious ego trancing: “This feels pleasurable and safe. It is good. This does not. It is bad.” It is a trance folks.

I feel impatient. Everything will change on this planet and then people will be living their own profound change and transformation. They will have no choice. Some are doing that now. I know some of them. Still most people seem to be choosing comfort, the known and stagnation.

A Reasonable Planet

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Earth is not a reasonable planet. The teacher at the front of the class said that recently. She knows alot. She was being intentionally delicate.

A shit show. That’s how the woman sitting next to me described it. I agree with her, but for the sake of this post I will be delicate.

We see people who have what they need and people who don’t. We probably think, “That’s just how it is. It is the nature of reality. Some people have what they need and some people don’t.” That’s how I used to think about it.

Here’s how I think about it now: “If you are born on this planet you have the right to a comfortable life. Period. No matter who you are, if you were born here, this planet is, de facto, your home. You have a right to be at home & comfortable in/on your home. Full stop.”

Until every human on this planet enjoys a comfortable physical life as a matter of fact, Earth will remain an unreasonable place. It is a matter of principle and principles are complete unto themselves, they do not have or require exceptions.

Therefore when that principle is accepted and activated, every human WILL have a comfortable life here on Earth and Earth will start to become a reasonable planet.

This may seem impossible, but that is what we were taught to believe, just like we were taught to believe that it is acceptable and reasonable that some people live in horrendous physical circumstances. When it is time, in our case it is a matter of timing, when it is time for this principle to be accepted and implemented, the changes and upgrades will be rapid.

How joyous will it be when that starts?

Why am I afraid of my power? (Part 1 – also known as “Am I levitating yet?”)

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I am studying the practical application of the Siddhis. I would like to study them, is more the truth. I am finding it difficult to get current, useful, enlightened information on their practical use. Instead I am wading through religious gobbledygook that is familiar muck.
I bought a book called “Beyond the Siddhis,” hoping it would offer practical suggestions for using the siddhis in every day life. While reading the first chapter, I was reminded of a bias I have encountered many times: that the “powers” attributed to the siddhis are, essentially unspiritual. They are impediments on the path to enlightenment and union with life.

I have heard that alot in my life and took it to heart. The result: tons of confusion, self-doubt and a desire to conform (which I mostly failed). I distrusted myself and, to some degree, it inhibited me from developing higher-order capabilities, choosing instead to be tethered, out of fear, to existing ways of navigating reality.

If I give Patanjali the benefit of the doubt, I would say he said these things to warn individuals against getting lost in any ego-based or “glamour” element of the siddhis. This applies to some people (and many institutions), but I am not one of them. If it applies to you, then by all means do the necessary inner work to release any sense of powerlessness and illusion that would make you seek power over others as a substitute for real power, which does not include power “over” anyone or thing and, further, does not even include an “other.” Power dwells within you, which I will get to in another post on this subject.

With all the warnings and shaming in the texts about developing siddhis, I also see classic brainwashing at work. Humans have been taught for millennia to doubt their own inner experience and any abilities that could be considered “super” by the existing institutions, including all religious orders. Those of us with a sincere desire for spiritual evolution have gotten alot of goop on our hands in this quest.

The thought sequence behind this post went something like: Institutions are crumbling. They are supposed to, because an unprecedented Earth is emerging. It will be beyond-beautiful. It will be beyond-belief. It will be the impossible dream come true. But…it’s not that now. This crumbling of existing institutions may get more intense. That wouldn’t feel like the big problem it does if something new and better emerged concomitantly (“something that naturally accompanies or follows something”). But that isn’t happening, at least not on a large scale. So these days, life can feel like hanging on to a ship that is cracked and taking on water.

It’s time to awaken those inner powers and use them in everyday life. ( Everyday Siddhis. Maybe there’s a book in that?) Soon, the old ways will not work and we need a clue about what will work.

The Siddhis are abilities that operate on a quantum scale. Time and space are local AND non-local. Not a problem. When does it seem to be a problem? When we take a so-called Newtownian thought/reality box and try to squeeze it in there. That, my friends, is the only problem.

Invisibility (masslessness), levitation, clair-sensory (inner hearing, seeing), remote viewing, bi-locating – are not only possible, but necessary in a quantum world and on a planet that has finally evolved spiritually and become a peaceful member & player in its own galaxy and other galaxies.

If you are to pull what you need into your own physical reality – whatever density you’re in – and y’don’t have the old institutions anymore (which are really, when you boil it down, just “ways of doing things” with a bunch of fancy names, a ton of collective agreement and fake orders of importance attached to them) then what are you to do?

Understanding Comfort

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Most of us conflate a “comfortable” life with a version we have of success and being a certain kind of human: smart, lucky, competent, desirable, right-kind-of and most of all, worthy.

A so-called comfortable life only means as much as the consciousness of the person living it. And it only means what we think it means because we’ve bought into someone else’s idea of what it is, who should have it, who should not have it, what it looks like and, most importantly, how it comes into manifestation.

Many people I know live good lives, but they protect their way of life at a cost. They allow their attachment and fear around it (circumstance and their identifications) to stunt their creativity and willingness to take risks.

Woven into the idea of who deserves a good life is the illusory idea of a “meritocracy.” People fill in their own beliefs and self-identities about the nature of a meritocracy. There are many versions of it.

What I propose is this: a human born onto this planet under any condition, time, circumstance, location, body, creed, namely ANY person simply born here on Earth has all the merit they need and will ever need to have a comfortable, luxurious life with the freedom to express their creativity and fulfill their desires and never have to earn the right to it. That is the only meritocracy that exists. Everything else is a belief system, no matter how outpictured it is or has been in the collective dream. A belief is entirely mutable. This whole system is built on puffy wisps that can blow away in a gentle breeze. Then all humans will live a good life and that will be a very good day.

The Biggest News

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I was watching the local Denver news last night (even though I am currently in Albuquerque) and saw this story (link below) on the good ole mainstream news. I turned to my husband and said, “This is possibly the most significant news story of our lifetime.”

It is. It is about the zero point energy field. The real news about it is this: it made it to the mainstream news. There has been so much nefarious suppression of this information – truly mind-boggling – over the decades that its presence in the mainstream news is HUGE!

I don’t know about the details of the particular science they discussed and the details of it don’t matter. Many (many) inventors, scientist & plain ole folks have found ways – “science” – to tap into the zero point energy field over the years. Some of them, like Stan Meyers, didn’t even know they were tapping into it. Of course the science will be significant for us folks to be able to use it, but the science was never the problem, the suppression was.

The zero point, plasmic energy field is infinite, grid-less and pristine. It could have been used here on Earth for at least the last 100 years (Nikola Tesla) and probably for millennia. It is the energy that is our birthright on Earth in this density. If we can finally use it, it will change everything about life as we know it.

https://www.cnn.com/us/live-news/nuclear-fusion-reaction-us-announcement-12-13-22/index.html

Being REALLY off-grid

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My website’s security registration has gone rogue because GoDaddy cannot confirm my phone number. Yes, that is the big ole nefarious reason. Keep your children safe! To satisfy GoDaddy, they require I have a statement notarized that my phone number is my phone number. Clutch your innocent children now!

To do that I need to find a notary in my area or at least one that actually works. Earlier this week, I did several online searches for notaries – a few came up with not a contact detail in the bunch. Also, I waited a very long time in line at the post office of the next town – 16 miles away – because Google said they had a notary. They didn’t. After several tries and about an hour of searching and waiting, I put the task off for another day. In the meantime, GoDaddy has put up a security flag on my site that says it contains dangerous URLs.

All because they want my phone number. And they insist it be notarized.

Here on the Mesa, I cannot use my laptop every day. We only have one freestanding solar generator for power, plus our RV’s solar setup, which is very helpful, but weaker. If there is a spate of rainy days, which there was the week before last, I literally cannot turn on my laptop until the sun has been back out for a couple days.

My laptop is old and only powers on electricity, not battery. On a rainy day, much less a group of them, electricity progressively powers down here, then disappears altogether. So the laptop is out. It’s rather depressing.

Today it is sunny and relatively early in the day. These are the two components for more generous electricity creation and, in turn, usage. We don’t make hay while the sun shines, but we do just about everything else. By 3pm, even on a sunny day, we must start turning things off to conserve what power we have for overnight. It’s almost 1pm now, I’ve got a couple hours, though I’ve also got a thousand things to do, all of which are basic, boring life tasks.

This is a set-up. The way I’m living and the way you’re living. It might seem so cool and unfettered to live “off-grid’ the way my husband and I do, but we are tied so heavily to survival chores, there is nothing cool or unfettered about it. At least about that part, but “that” is a huge part of life.

(Note of gratitude: What IS unfettered is the land itself. After it rains, the smell of sage infuses the air. You walk on the paths and it’s like walking in a sage bath. The quiet. It is so quiet here you can hear the sound a bird’s body makes when it motors its wings. Even with your eyes closed, you know what part of flight it is in. THAT part is unfettered, but the rest of it is like living in a labor camp.)

Well, that’s the way it is, you might say to yourself. Life, chores, living off-grid. Is it? Is it really? I say, “No,” it is most definitely not the way it is. Not in the existential sense, which is what we mean when we say “that’s how it is.” It is not the way things were meant to be here on planet Earth. But yes, it is the way they were manipulated into existing, so in that sense it is the way things are…..for now.

I will dig into this more in a future post, but energy on Earth is actually infinite and free. “Actually” as in it is a physical fact about the structure of our Earth and the field that surrounds it. And not free like the sun or the wind, because I’m here to tell you, ain’t nothing free or infinite about solar or wind energy. They are the consolation prizes of the existing system of control – which extends to energy, healthcare, communication, travel…you name it…pretty much everything.

Modern wind turbines are ugly. They light up at night and light-pollute the horizon for miles. We used to see the ones in Wyoming from our balcony in northern Colorado. They completely took over the view of the northern horizon and constantly flashed unpleasant artificial red lights. We were not interested in seeing flashing red lights as our view of the beautiful north.

You’re probably thinking, well it’s better than oil! It’s better than coal!…nuclear! All a setup, my friend. ALL of those are unnecessary. Check out the work of Nicola Tesla. We should have had zero point energy in every area of our lives over 100 years ago. But we don’t. And that is by careful design. Think about it: who benefits (profits) by the current systems we have?

Zero point would mean no more being a slave to energy. No more solar and wind as the heroes they aren’t. Zero Point energy works with the toroid and is free and infinite. It FREES the human, it doesn’t bind us further, like living at the whim of a solar generator and the sun and the rain (which get manipulated too). Or all the other myriad ways we are bound by the control and seizure of energy on our planet, which is also unequivocally destroying the entire biosphere of this once-gorgeous planet.
And yet we don’t have zero point energy boxes in our homes. We don’t have med beds – another FREEING technology- in any city, town or village. And that’s no accident. No accident at all.