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Info Streams and Earth Restoration

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There are many information streams in the ethers. You may think you’re tapping into the “highest” (really, deepest) information stream about…anything – future, your self, the self and futures of others, the Earth – when in fact you are tapping into something less than that.

I’ve been thinking about how to articulate a litmus test for testing the quality of the information one taps into, but I couldn’t. My first thought was, “It has to be uplifting.” But there are many sweet energy/information streams in existence that are still limited or relatively limited or even composed of flat-out disinformation.

Earth restoration and “green” anything is a disinformation mode. Shocking, isn’t it? I used to be a big proponent of Earth conservation and restoration. Some of that was because of my love of nature and the Earth and some of it was because of limited information.

The Earth is evolving like, hopefully, the human is. I think one big (dis)information stream says that an evolved Earth will look like some kind of paradise, a paradisiacal version of what exists now or has existed. I definitely used to think that. I used to think, “When all is well, there will be natural beauty, the trees will be whole, animals will be free and peaceful (that one I still want), streams will be clear, air will be crystalline, etc.” But now I think Earth’s evolution will look like this layer of her physical existence and all that exists on her crust – civilization as we know it – will disappear and she will implode this level of her reality into a star. This is not to say I justify or can even slightly abide the degradation and disrespect the Earth endures. I cannot. It is heart-wrenching. But I know her future and it isn’t going back to any version of the past. Why would I wish that on her?

(No, we will not explode when she implodes…that is another disinformation stream.)

When I hear someone’s vision of the future and it involves some sort of restoration of what exists or has existed in the natural world, I know immediately they are tapping into disinformation. That is not true Earth love (yes! I know it feels that way) because she wants to truly evolve and it does not include anything of the old or what has been.

How Do You React When Things Fall Apart?

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When life falls apart (seems to) or things don’t go the way you wanted or expected, how do you react? Are you able to see beyond the narrative? The stories we internalized that filter how we see things. Perhaps one could call it the normative narrative. These stories & norms are everywhere and we have identified with them (as we were intensely taught to do: school, home, peer pressure, religion, media and more). Can you see beyond them? That is the gift, the great opportunity in the things falling apart experience.

In my case I’m breaking the norms (primarily) with my way of life, how I am living my day to day life. While I sometimes talk about it as something heroic (don’t get me wrong, it feels pretty frickin heroic), the fact is, I do not experience a choice in it. It is my soul’s call. Everything in life is our soul’s call, but sometimes we get to live our life in ways that comport or agree more with our ego structures, norms and our likes. But the soul is the puppeteer. It pulls the strings.

When the soul decides to turn up the volume – intensify for growth, wisdom – you will know it, because things tend to fall apart. It is not the only way the soul teaches, but it is a way that frequently happens. Can you see this happening when things fall apart?

I often feel like I’m the only one who sees this. It’s lonely.

We Are the Disclosure, but…..

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Lately I’ve been hearing a similar thing from sources I trust. They are saying we, the humans on Earth, are the impediment to full disclosure. It is not the organizations, governments, secret space programs, cabal, it is us. We have not integrated fully enough to handle the frequencies that disclosure will require.

Others would say we have not raised our vibration or raised our frequency enough. I won’t say that. It is a matter of integration, not ascending. We humans have endured and internalized aeons of conditioning about hierarchies, including the god matrix. Without our belief that we are less than, no hierarchical belief system could take hold. But hierarchical beliefs – all kinds – OWN us.

This is why it is important to understand the difference between the “bliss” of the false spirituality and the deep, unmoveable, soft heart of true integration. Even this makes it sound complicated, but it is not. However, discernment is very important.

We have not integrated our inner reality enough. Again, sounds complicated. When did you last judge your partner, child, neighbor, sibling, mother/father? That is part of the inner reality I’m talking about and you experience it constantly. Start there.

Years ago, someone I trust said (emphatically) that the soul will complete its mission no matter what. I used to get all lofty and feel a sense of power about that. But that is ego. That is the false spirituality. Don’t you want true freedom? It is beyond all good and all not-good. It is not a sensation of bliss. On its journey to freedom, the soul might take you to your knees. That is true power. Does it feel like it? False spirituality/bliss will crumble like a house of cards if the soul turns up its volume. It will not feel good.

You are it. I’ve said it many times, but it’s not a power trip and we know almost nothing but power trips. But we can change that. We can release the fake. Who pissed you off today? Get still and ask the “judge your neighbor” worksheet questions in stillness. This is the power that does not feel like power, but is.

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One More Time For the Cheap Seats: The Advantage of the No-Escape Life

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The advantage (that feels like a total disadvantage) of the no-escape life is, well, if you feel imprisoned or stuck, you cannot rely on behaviors or even thought-constructs you may have used in the past to look away from certain beliefs and feelings you hold. At least not in the same way. I don’t know about you, but this doesn’t feel good to me.

But it’s not always about feeling good.

This fact will bring up a host of reactions. You will face them because you cannot escape the situation. Not only will you look at the reactions you are experiencing, but it will serve you to look at how you are perceiving the situation itself.

For me the issue of money, earning, worth and creating have been sticky ones. Here in my life of little distraction (I still try!) are some of the underlying issues I’ve noticed feel constricting on these issues:

  1. Feeling like a slave.
    A slave to the good opinion of others. (huge)
    A slave to:
    – work trends
    – what is considered good business
    – what is considered real
    – what is considered worthy, authoritative
    – what has “real” substance
    – what is considered crazy or sane
    – who deserves to be paid well and who doesn’t
    – what I have to do or not do to be paid well

    The list goes on with that one.

Some of the others are: navigating different-ness; sensitivity; self-worth; the right to be; the right to speak; fear of visibility. That is what I’ve noticed just on that one subject.

These issues are both cultural (in the largest sense) and personal. Or they seem personal. Part of the alchemy process is looking at the sense of how personal the “issues” feel. That is an important part of blending them back into center, zero point and moving beyond.

Your job, should you choose to accept it ;^) – is to become aware of both aspects: the larger cultural one, by which I mean the imposition by other cultures into our thought, spiritual and physical realm and the personal.
The cultural impositions play a huge role. Part of this control system has resulted in humanity as a collective, not knowing or acknowledging there are other cultures who live off-planet and interdimensionally. Nor do we understand the profound role they have played and continue to play in our lives and experience of reality. So much easier to control a species when part of how you do it is deny your very existence. It is hard to believe something is influencing you that doesn’t exist.

You might think this is crazy talk that has nothing to do with you. You’re wrong.

The control system encompasses almost everything about reality except your heart-soul essence or your is-ness, however you term it. The no-escape life gives you the opportunity to become aware of these influences more quickly and to see what part of this mix you feel most identified with, as in: triggered; attached to; repulsed by; intensely wanting of; defining your self-worth by or even what you value. It is the is-ness, the “immediacy” within to which you bring all the attachments of concept, memory, identity.
(It is not god. If you are bringing this inner material to god, you are not exiting the matrix. You are looping back into the control/containment sphere.)

The no-escape life, especially if it is lived in a remote area like mine, gives you the quietude and lack of distraction (arghh) to see this inner material more clearly. This is truly the first step to dissolving it. It gives you an accelerated opportunity to blend the positive & negative, dissolve it and move more intensely inward to the unified field. That is true freedom. This is why it is an advantage. This is the path to completing your soul’s journey in this universe. It is the reason you are here.

What is a Fractal Human?

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For my purposes, a fractal is a compressed version of every life expression you’ve ever experienced in this universe. The “you” I’m referring to is your infinite soul or infinite being, whichever term you prefer. There are millions of expressions your soul has had in this universe. Maybe even billions. Not just a few. Fractals may have other meanings in other contexts, but the one I refer to is a compression of all the soul’s universal expressions in this body right now in this lifetime.

Our “fractality” is not literal in the physical sense, meaning we don’t physically display all these life expressions – that would be wild! – but inside ourselves, essentially, we embody all those life expressions.
That is why there is so much density here on Earth. If you embody all your incarnational experiences in one form it is dense and kinda crowded. This density is not “dense” like being dumb and lowly, which is the pervasive meme or mind-control thought about it. This perception – that we are dense, lowly and in need of raising our frequency/vibration to be “better” -is stronger than you think. It controlled me in subtle ways for eaons until recently.

This distinction, between knowing we are fractals wholly complete and infinite in essence vs. thinking we are incomplete, children of a creator in need of saving, “higher’ guidance, and ever-elusive completeness is vitally important.
It has changed my life. I think it can change yours.

Fractal Compression (Can’t We Avoid This?)

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As universal fractals about to graduate we will go through compression. That is how the fractal process works. Like coal becoming a diamond, except we were always diamond, we just have “played” coal.

The compression process looks different for different people, but you kinda know it when you are in it. Actually you may not know what it is, but you will know it feels sucky. If definitely sucks.

What the compression process is, is blending all your inner aspects. You are looking at every fear-infused nook and cranny within yourself. As I said in my blog post about money much of what passes for normal or even the “good life” in our world is often fear-based. Y’gotta look that gnarly stuff in the eye. But you have to do it in real life, by living your life. If it’s just something you do in your mind or energetically, it is not compression.

Once you confront the tough stuff internally you can blend it, integrate it. You…we… will move into the unknown. And the way better.

What is coming on Earth is not a better version of what the matrix tells you is the “good life” or what you have known before. It is something altogether different. During compression you know (all too well) what you have lost or left behind, but you don’t know what you’re going to. That is a big part of what makes it feel crummy.

God is the Most Centralized of All

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Is that true? I suspect it is. God is an entity in a matrix. The god matrix. It is not the creator of all that is; it is not even the creator of this Universe. It did not create me. It is an entity on a massive cosmo-ego trip. And through its priestly caste of the ages and by their infiltration of most cultures on earth regardless of the nature of each religion and its unique insistence on obedience and worship, it has enslaved the minds and hearts of countless humans by manipulating our desire to love.

Decentralizing & the Natural Way of Being (The Infinite)

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Thank you to all of you who have given me your contact information through the link on the site. I do have a link to the Apple e-book version of my book, “Lili the Cat Finds the Infinite Bank” that is for sale: https://books.apple.com/us/book/lili-the-cat-finds-the-infinite-bank/id1186113231. That is my current offering.

I am mulling over offering some coaching sessions for people whose infrastructure way of life has shifted dramatically due to things like fires, floods, job losses/changes, cost of living, etc., and are interested in looking at the inner transformational aspect of that experience. Folks who are open to seeing their experience of radical change as good prep for the shifts that are to come on Earth and for all humanity.

Yes, this prep involves dealing with the so-called outer changes, but it is not ultimately about that. It is about the massive changes you experience within yourself that prep you. You train yourself to have a wiser relationship to the unknown.  Most of us have a dysfunctional relationship to the unknown. Those who can flow better between the known and unknown will have a much easier time in the coming years.

As this blog has chronicled, I have experienced (and am experiencing) massive changes to my way of life the last few years and especially the last two+ years since we moved to the Mesa.
It is a difficult but unparalleled path of inner change. “Path”. doesn’t quite feel like the right word. The experience is more like being plunged into freezing cold water repeatedly. It is jarring. It is jarring frequently. But if your soul wants you to be on the wisdom fast track and wants you align with its deeper agenda quickly, there are few better ways. You have no choice but to try to swim. Yet you don’t know how. Not in this water. Or so it seems. Therein lies the accelerated alchemy and swimming in uncharted water.

….I am stuck on this blog entry. That is because the subject is still not fully formed in my mind. Here are some terms I have so far:

Infinite way of being
Decentralization
Mitochondria
Heart essence
Ego
Intellect

I have been learning about mitochondrial health from Dr. Jack Kruse. He describes himself as “decentralized.” He practices decentralized medicine. He is a huge proponent of Bitcoin.

I am also a fan of someone named Jonathan MacDonald. He is into a variety of things, including spirituality and one of his creations (co-creations) is a decentralized crypto platform called “Minima.”

The work of both these men and George Kavassilas got me thinking about life, health, money and spirituality from this particular vantage point. It is intriguing.

My bias is always toward spirituality and how to be completely free within. It is the real pearl beyond price because inner freedom, like that exemplified by Byron Katie, gives you the only real freedom worth having, the only real freedom that exists: complete, total freedom from fear and attachment. Any attachment. Katie would experience the same peaceful state of being whether she was a queen in a castle or an un-housed woman in her underwear on the street with people who used to be her friends spitting on her. I get tears in my eyes thinking about her. How do you describe this beauty? It is the only true freedom.

That being said, I am still on the path to this and have not arrived yet. If I were un-housed on the street with friends spitting on me I would feel so deeply hopeless and despondent I would want to die. Yes, I’m still on the path.

So the inner part of the decentralization, which GK would call the Heart Essence, has something to do with shifting our way of being and what one turns to within – to something decentralized. Not the ego. Not an imagined center, including every societal, conditioned, imagined identity and self-image we have. It’s so subtle. It is undramatic and beyond-radically different. I’m still trying to understand it. I’m still trying to live it.

The Isolation (& Assorted)

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It is cold in my yurt. Got the heat back on, but it has only risen to 57 F from 52. Fingers are cold as I type.
A couple fingers are swollen. Not from cold. Not sure from what. Saw my functional MD this summer and I had two underlying bacterial conditions, including chlamydia. I got it from a spider bite. Only Dr. Bill, my functional MD, would know that! Turns out some scientific dude studied spiders back in the day and cultured one of their mandibles (wtf?). He discovered chlamydia bacteria. So you don’t have to have sex with the spider. It just has to bite you.

I took kudzu for one of the infections. I think it was the chlamydia. One of the symptoms was swollen finger joints, which is what is happening again. I ordered some more kudzu. I’ll see if it helps with my finger joints. The pinky on the right hand has kind of blown up. Weird. They were feeling alot better until a couple days ago.

I was in Denver last weekend. Doing a class with Sharon, the beloved spiritual teacher. After class, during happy hour at the hotel, I was talking to Patricia. I’m not even sure exactly what I said, but expletives were flying out of my mouth. I am originally from New Jersey and have been known to sling a swear word or two. I think I was trying to articulate how disappointed and isolated I feel because almost no one seems to get what my life is about. And….that group there, my classmates – they should know better. So I think.

Truth be told, some of them might get it. They might be able to articulate an understanding of my life experience – the gist, the core of it – that would feel really satisfying to me. No one did so that weekend. Part of the problem of not only the way I currently live, but with society in general now is how isolated we are. Not only that, but our collective communication has been affected – for the poorer – from the Algo culture (Technical/Artificial Intelligence world, culture). I don’t even understand it all. I don’t want to. I just know Algo shapes communication and perception: we feel more separate and worse.

I felt icky after talking to Patricia. Even though swearing happens out of my mouth, I don’t feel good afterwards, especially if it has caught me off-guard, which this did….completely. I am sitting with the aftermath of the conversation, discerning what I need to be more conscious of. It is this: I feel isolated. It stresses me. I greatly wish people understood and appreciated what I’m doing with my life and why I’m doing it. I write this blog in hopes of helping with that. To be honest, it is the best I can do. I have almost no patience for explaining my life. I speak up, but am also quiet alot.

Too often people see it in the old way. Try to fit it into old narratives. Matrix-created narratives of meritocracy and their own unconscious ego action. So much unconscious ego trancing: “This feels pleasurable and safe. It is good. This does not. It is bad.” It is a trance folks.

I feel impatient. Everything will change on this planet and then people will be living their own profound change and transformation. They will have no choice. Some are doing that now. I know some of them. Still most people seem to be choosing comfort, the known and stagnation.