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Oh Blog, I come to you….

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Oh blog, I come to you…with first thoughts. I wrote something I actually like. It says alot. Here is the link: https://janerothfeld.com/about-jane/. (The contact button on the page does not seem to work, so ignore that for now.)

So my husband just brought the whole composting toilet into the yurt, because it was too frozen to open in the shed where it lives. Usually we can just bring the “necessary parts” into the yurt, because, yes, it needs to thaw before it can be cleaned. Even with that – having to bring the poop bucket into the yurt to let it thaw, which is (so much) more than enough – he said, “This comes under the ‘things I never thought I’d do’ category.”

When those things you do that you never thought you would do are ultimately thrilling – the marathon, parachuting from a plane – that’s one thing. What is this thing he and I are living where almost-daily we do unpleasant things we never thought we’d do? Humbling. Yes. Sucky. For sure. There’s more to it, I write about it all the time, but we don’t get the thrill. I can guarantee that.

About his awakening, the spiritual teacher, Lester Levenson, said, “I was lucky. I had a gun to my head.” He was referring to the fact that he had had a serious heart attack in his forties and was told by the doctors to basically go home and die. Instead he went home and underwent a profound inner inventory and completely woke up from the illusion of duality. The fact that his life was on the line was a vital accelerant.

Is that the formula for waking up? Nope. Just as getting ready to hang yourself, as Eckhart Tolle did, is not a formula for awakening, though that was his story. Same with Byron Katie who experienced her awakening – when the “work found her” is how she would put it – while on the floor of a halfway-house because she felt she did not deserve to sleep in a bed. None of these are formulas for waking up. If most of us attempt to hang ourselves with a rope we will die.

However, when the soul wants to accelerate awakening, it will often bring in a “gun to the head” situation. In my case, jobs & savings completely disappeared and did not reappear. For other people it can be a serious health issue, like Lester Levenson and many others I know right now.

These back-to-the-wall situations pull an intense focus and allow your soul to move through resistance and illusion that you, the human side of the construct, would maintain…at all costs. Hell, I would. Wouldn’t you?

Integration: The Key to It All

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I suspect inner integration is the key to tapping into all our power. The inner integration of shadow and light.

I’m hearing: it is the key to the kingdom. But that’s religion and religion is a mimic and it’s not the place of our true power.

You are It. Your inner integration of shadow- fear, guilt, self-loathing, doubt, etc- and light- joy, expansiveness, happiness, enthusiasm- is the key with which you unlock the deeper unlimited you.

You integrate by softening into. Not escaping through fantasy and ideology (as fun as that can be).

The Advantage of No-Escape

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I’ve been thinking today (and every day for the last three years) about the advantage of the rug-pull and the no-escape life. First, know, I am not talking about literal imprisonment or anything harmful. Also, my no-escape has been set up by my soul/inner being. No one else is controlling it. I’d love to say I never feel like a victim, but the truth is I often feel like a victim. Still, I know that my soul/inner being calls the shots. I am not a victim. The push-pull of feeling like a victim while not being one is the crux, or one of them, of what is getting worked out during this time of no-escape.

Are you a victim of slave consciousness?

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If you said no, you are lying to yourself. But that’s ok. It’s not your fault. There’s so much to say on the subject, I will try to summarize this huge topic and come back to some of it later.

Why it’s not your fault?

1. Maybe you think you are a master? You might not realize that the sense of being a master is part of slave consciousness. You might identify as a master in your life, but it is still a limitation. Look closely: how could there even exist such a thing as a master without the opposite of slave?

2. The control mechanisms on this planet are quite literally mind-boggling. Control of the human form, control of its consciousness (and control of the consciousness by control mechanisms in the human form) and control of its connection to its fractal nature and infinite beingness (which can never actually be severed).

I talk about some of it in my published writings, but I’m not sure I’ll ever talk about all of it. Well, “ever” is a long time, so I won’t commit to that, but I won’t talk about them now. Why? Partly, yes, it could make me a target and I am not interested in that. But also, people have to have a certain amount of wisdom cultivated or “under their belt” to be able to hear about these mechanisms and have it be constructive. Without that, it would become a catalyst for deep fear and that is never my intention. I won’t do it.

I am at that point now where I’m open to knowing much more about the control mechanisms, but I’ve been at the wisdom-cultivating game for 50 years. And….I’m extremely selective about my sources. You must be. There is a lot of misinformation out there. The misinformation needs to be sorted and ignored. Some of my sources were in my life 30+ years ago, some of them only came to my awareness 9 months ago. So some of the good info is more available now.

BUT…but…no matter the degree of challenge of control structures here on beloved Earth – and they are a deep challenge – each and every one of us is always…ALWAYS the locus of power. We all have the power to go beyond all the control mechanisms. We go beyond the control mechanisms by going deeply within.

We don’t ascend or get a higher frequency or less dense (our so-called density is our super power) or become some more spiritualized version of “master” to engage our power. All of that is part of the control mechanism. It is control ideology. It is part of the imposed narrative.

How do we access our true power?

We blend our inner shadow and light.
We become aware of and discard pretty much every perceptual filter we’ve “stuck to.”
We go into our heart essence. And in. And in.
That is where infinite is.
Not in climbing, ascending a set of false spiritual steps/frequencies or “mastering” anything. That is where infinite is not.